Emily's

Every possibility.

2010-01-10T21:26:00.002+08:00

Okay hello! I know my posts are gettin boring cause there is no pictures, so bear with me yup? So today i spend my afternoon with my new baby, nurul farhana binte haron. Hahahahahaha.

I went to meet her under my block and we walk to Bpp for my lunch :-) Had KFC, then went to buy her sweettalk and went back to my block. Gummy & his sister came along, lepak till 5+ and Gummy & his sister left.

So left me and Fana there, then we stayed till 6pm and went to Pending to send her. So i finally told her everything and i feel much much much super duper fucking better :) And she also told me stuffs too, and when i told her about my dream last night, she kept laughing and she choke on her drink, LMAO.

Then send her to Pending already, came online. Chatted with Fana, Ira, Hazmi & Fadhila. So tomorrow's monday and im going to wake up at 6.15 again.

I feel so unhappy, cause i have to wake up so early. And im gettin fatter and fatter, seriously sia wtf. I must slim down now already, slimming tea, you shall be my best companion :p I will love you to the max, and please make my morning shitting routine be a great and less painful one, haha omg im so disgusting :S

Okay, good news is that im no longer sad, yay i did it 8) Im so proud of myself, so tomorrow i got no idea what to wear, fuck this shit. -.-

Im on msn with Fana & Hazmi still. Texting with Idris and seriously, he made me laugh like one mad girl. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. But i shall stop laughing cause im like a mad girl (like always)

So yup, i shall stop here then, if im not blogging from tomorrow till friday, i will update on saturday and sunday for sure.

I WISH I WILL BE HAPPY ^.^

I'll rip your head apart.

2010-01-10T13:11:00.002+08:00

So yup, i just finished chatting Fana, Billy. Both of them seriously made me laugh like one mad girl. Haha, so Billy is our chairperson. Haha, okay inside joke :p Haha. *baby* LOL!!

So yup, gonna meet up Fana for KFC and lepak with Gummy & his sist. So yup, im going to get a bath and get ready.

Shall update again later, oh and yes, im working tomorrow, good thang? NO!!

With everything that i've got, its nothing.

2010-01-09T15:37:00.005+08:00

Okay finally a proper post. I think i'll only blog for 2 times per week, cause i'm working from monday till friday :/

So today i woke up at 7am, bath, went out at 7.15am. I hate taking LRT early in the morning cause everyone like kanchiong fuckers sia, keep pushing me, -.- Then alighted at Bukit Panjang and took 961.

Reach workplace, stayed there till 12.30. Left and 961 and walk home, was texting with snufflepagus all the way. Dumb snuffle! Make me laugh and smile all the way, lol. Reach home, eat my 1st meal, bath, online :D

So i was on msn with Bammy Zoomzoom, and he told me about his side and i told him, and tada! Same situation :) Hmm, what to do? But i will remember our secrets, haha! So he went to bath and we'll msn later.

I was on msn with Farris too, and what he said makes sense.. I've already did my best to make the relationship to be as long lasting as it could, but its not me, is you, you have to do it too. So yeah, im dumb. Just my luck! *shrugs*

I was on msn with Snufflepagus, Fadhila too and i even went to search for snufflepagus's picture and its on my display picture now, i doubt i will change it. HAHAHHAA!! So yeah..

Tomorrow is another off day! Yay, i want to meet anak haron!! So tired, feel like sleeping :/ Today is saturday, 9pm no show to watch :( Stupid mediacorp. Lol, kidding dont sue me okie.

So i got 2 pictures to show you people, wait!

SEEN?! HAHAHAHA! At first i only put "Snufflepagus" Then he go and change his pm with my name, stupid Snufflepagus. Hahahah!! On my contact list, there is 2 Snufflepagus now, and soon, i'll have Elmo when one of them cut his hair :p Hahaha!!!! Cause he call me 45 year old makcik!! So bad, but nevermind, im nice..... haha (cause he read my blog, right snufflepagus?)

AND THIS IS SNUFFLEPAGUS FROM SESAME STREETS. HEHEHE!!!! ^.^V ( I ROCKS!)

So yup, and last night i saw Yi Han, haha cute cute!!! Okay shut up la Emily!! My aim is to have a Chinese boyfriend please!!!! :-) Cause Alastair and Fadhila told me to, and i think i should give it a try. :)

So yeaaaaaaah, chalo!! (i miss bffl)

drifting from cyber.

2010-01-08T19:25:00.004+08:00

Okay hello everyone. Im currently at my mom's shop. For the past few days, alot of things happened, shall elaborate for y'all alright. :)

on 3rd jan, i went to meet up with Fana and loads of pictures was taken, view it on my facebook. :)

on 4th jan, went into relationship again after having a "just-nice" pause with Ayun. Was happy indeed, seriously, i miss him so much. Went for work late, somemore 1st day, haha!! :P

On 5th jan - 7th jan. I went for work as per normal, work starts from 9am and it ends at 6pm. 1 hour+ plus trip, very tiring, seriously.

Broke up with Ayun on the 7th, i wanna say that this time im the bad person, im the one who asked for break, so to whoever out there, please don't fucking force him or whatsoever, finally, you'll think, finally emily ask for break.. I don't want to break, but forget it.. Afterall, i am nothing to you when our r/s is a forced one.... :'(

So i hope, i won't be the bad person already, seriously. This suck and the fact is that i don't want to break, but you make me feel so bad for having you beside me.

So yeah, anyone define BFF? haha, chalo~

Okay la, im done. i think imma delete my tumblr?

last long to i-know-who. & im on msn with Khamirul ^^ He is one lazy bum. :P

Worn out.

2010-01-05T17:51:00.002+08:00

okay, currently im in my office, just 5 more minutes that i can knock off already :p

i wont be coming online that often cause my mom took the laptop :(
and yes, i started working already, its at Ecentre, opposite Bukit Merah Secondary.
Very tiring, but i must tahan :) Haha.

so i wont be blogging that often for the time being, but i will be replying tags too.

Meanwhile, take note of my tweets then :)

Okay till here, i need to go toilet liao :/ haha bye!

2010-01-04T16:25:00.001+08:00

hi, i wont be updating that often already, so if there's anything just contact me through phone.
Takecare readers, bye ;)

2010-01-03T20:47:00.000+08:00

MIAAAAA.

Everything was like a movie.

2010-01-03T11:38:00.003+08:00

Good morning, well today i woke up quite early, as early as 10am. Haha, i think im going crazy. Okay today is Michael's birthday, so yeah happy birthday Michael! Although we don't talk, haha. So yup get back to the topic, my plan for today is to spend my last holiday with Nurul Farhana Binte Haron aka Short bestfriend :p

Im gonna get a haircut with her, and i think imma get my hair to be more "scene". I wanted this hairstyle badly, i had once, but my hair grew longer -__- And now, posers are coming. Nah, not refering to Fadhila, cause i was the one who introduced her the hairstyle cause i think she suits the hairstyle ^^ Im refering to some people la, -__- Fuck posers, i still dreamt of you last night, eeew spoil my sweet dream :S

Okay, so later'on i'll get my scene hairstyle again! Can't wait to see that pendek!! HAHA. So school's tomorrow, i miss wearing school uniform :( Shucks right, when im viewing Inia's blog, i feel like crying T_T Cause i misses school badly!

So tomorrow my siblings are out to school but not for me. Im gonna wake up at 7am instead of 6am, im not gonna fight the toilet rooms with them, im not gonna bicker with them anymore. And most importantly, im not going out of the door with Yeeru anymore :( Im gonna miss school so so so so so much! Work starts tomorrow, sucks. But i hope it will go well la.

And i reckon that im gonna be a big loser during lunch time, cause i got no kaki and im gonna eat alone, fuck this shit -.-

Hahaha, oh and yes, my parents allowed me to sign up for the april intake!! And i got so happy that i can't sleep, the 1st person i informed was Fana! And she got so happy! Hopefully i'll get in la, i prefer studying than working like duh, my office so ulu, with lkk people, omg. x.x

But no matter what, wish me luck for tomorrow la! Im going work alone, lunch time alone, going back alone too. So boring, loser loner indeeeeeeed. Fuck this shit, _1_ LOL.

So yup, im tweeting, and im craving for KFC. AND DID I TOLD YOU THAT TUMBLR IS BEING SUCH A BITCH? I THINK TUMBLR IS HAVING MENSES. LOLLLLLLLL.

CIAOS!

What if your current boyfriend/girlfriend plays with your heart?

2010-01-02T20:44:00.003+08:00

So what if eh? Its no longer a current as im single right now. But i can still relate to this topic as i felt this way before recently.

If my heart was being played, firstly i'll be the most stupid fucked up girl in the world to forgive him for the first time. And i'll hope and pray that he won't do it again. Yes i know very very very stupid.

As for the second time, it may a lil bit harder for me to forgive him, but still, i'll still forgive him but i will not forget about it. My feelings for him will slowly fade, but i'll make it come back from fading. And i'll make sure, i'll keep him with me, safely, making sure he won't do it again.

Third time, last chance, i'll forgive him again but i won't stop my feelings for fading. I know clearly that he is playing with the chances that i gives to him, playing with my feelings, and of course, taking me for granted.

At the point of time when i can't take it, i'll really let the rest of the love i have for him go. And after the break up, i'll take every chance to post my hatred and making sure that this hatred will fade soon as so to make it easier for me to let my heart open again.

The rest, i'll let karma do the dirty jobs, i may hate him, but i know, i'll still be there afterall when he really needs me.

Guys are big time egoist, fucking ego. They don't express their feelings when they are feeling really down, especially when they are in a relationship, and this cause awkward moments, unhappy moments and most importantly, slowly this relationship will be getting more boring and meaningless.

Sometimes i hope guys will at least forget about the ego in them in order to make it easier for girls to understand them.

And lastly, i hope, when guys says "i love you"/ "cause i syg you alot"/ "syg, i know im wrong, plz dun leave me"/ "i will never leave you", please fucking use your fucked up bloody pea size brain, because whatever you says, we girls will always remember, get this into your brain guys! -__-

Okay im done, bye.

Holding hands causes heat

2010-01-02T17:23:00.003+08:00

Okay hello! Im done with my dinner already, so im here to post for today ;) Well, today i've decided to change my blogskin as im feeling kinda down ever since few days ago, so yeah, if i were to change blogskin, i'll feel happier! Haha i know im weird :/

So i spend 2 hours on the links section and im kinda shag after doing so, but looking at the result, i am very satisfied with it ^^ Hehe, congrats to me! And thanks for the compliments too :) I doubt i'll change this blogskin so soon, hehe. Its so pretty!

So yeah, 2 more days and im off to work! Im going to meet Fana up tomorrow for her haircut, and i was wondering should i have my hair cut too? Let me think ayeeeeeeeee. Haha! Cause i want my hair to be long but yet i have the urge to have my hair cut :-(

So if i were to cut, what hairstyle should i cut? Okay la, shall drop this topic. I am on MSN with Lingsheng right now, and we're both talking about the same topic and shitttt, and he know my weakness already, damn it. Haha, but its okay la, we're on the same boat, okay not really. Zzzz, whatever :P Haha!

Hmm today is quite a boring day, i woke up at 1.06pm. And last night i was watching a movie with my family but not Edmus as he went to sleep already. The show was god damn funny and we slept at 1am+ :D

Cousins are coming back, and yes, my kaki gerek is here to talk with me till all of us are sleepy!! Yay i can't wait :P And i can't wait to bitch about you-know-who with Yongsheng too!! :D

Alright shall stop here already, bye@ Catch me on tumblr ;)

If only my voice can travel.

2010-01-01T20:53:00.002+08:00

Okay hello people again, im here for a second post of the day. Today is a pretty much boring day but glad that i've got tumblr with me, hahah! :P

Soooooo, im currently on formsprings.me, tumblr.com, facebook and tweetdeck :P Haha, and i swear, teetdeck is so so convenient as compared to twitter.com, as in you don't need to go to the web, you can have it downloaded on your desktop, its very convenient :P

Hmm, i've been talking to angmohs on formsprings and its hella cool! And i cam across this quote and i think i should show it to you guys. :D

“There’s no reason to breakup. All those unreasonable excuses; why breakup when you know you still have feelings for that person? You’re just hurting yourself & the person you love. You know you still feel for them, yet you won’t admit it. You don’t love them anymore, you say? Well then let go. Why can’t you let go? Stop noticing what they do or say all the time, quit glancing over when they’re around, stop thinking back to things that they said to you or did with you. Can’t? That’s when you know you’re not over them completely yet. You try to keep yourself busy with homework & try talking to other people, but does it really work? If not, you’re either stupid or you’re dumb. Why? Obviously you still have feelings for them. Let someone know when you care about them; tell them if you love them. Tell them if you miss them. Chances don’t come to you; you go find them. Trust & believe. If you think you have feelings for them, trust your feelings & believe you do, because you do.”

So its so true right? Hmm this is the reason why i don't ask for break. Cause when i agrees to be in a relationship with someone, i'll be sure that since i agree to be with him, i am going to tolerate everything and give my 100% into it. And if i don't, i will never agree. I guess those who broke up with girls are god damn idiotic, if you don't plan to last long with her, don't fucking ask and play with her heart, bloody fuck up douche.

Okay, i got no idea why am i so worked up, but still i think im not wrong. :) And guys please, use your brain zzz No offence eh guys, hahaha :P

So yeah, now im thinking of clearing my msn list but im lazy too. Hahaha, i think imma just delete some strangers cause they added me from facebook and ask me questions like can they be friends with me and then get into much closer r/s. Like what the fuckkkkkk?! Haha hilarious i know, imma delete them :P WATCH ME!

Im on msn with Berlinda Sist now, hehe bye. :D

Put everything behind and start anew!

2010-01-01T10:34:00.002+08:00

Okay so yeah, happy 2010 year!!! :D :D Well last night was having a simple mini celebration but we had fun playing with pokercards and video taking! :) It was a great start with Gummy & Cammie :D

So 2009 is finally over, i really look forward for 2010, i'll be most likely be stucking inside a air-conditioned room with adult beside me, but who cares?! I'll just do my best and give 'em a impression that a 16 year old teenager can do serious stuffs too!! [:

So the time now is 10.38am and i'm suppose to be with 4D for preparation of Bbq and i guess i won't be going already, don't ask why, kinda disappointing and this will be the last time that i will be organizing a gathering or whatever you call it ya ;)

So now im counting down to 4th january. Will be starting work on that day, 9am - 6pm. So i'll be seldom online and blogging, and most importantly, tumblring :( I guess i'll queue everything so that my tumblarity won't drop like how a cheetah chase after something :P

So yeah right now, i haven't brushed my teeth. HAHAHA LOL. I shall do it now, bye!

MAY 2010 BE A GREAT YEAR FOR YOU GUYS!! CHOWWWWZ.

5 more hours, 41 minute more to go!

2009-12-31T19:05:00.002+08:00

Okay, can't wait for countdown later'on!!!! Heheh! So now im waiting for Cammie to come over. And i will head to Bangkit after that, lol. Alright, 2009.... :D

I've been through alot, i've went through different stages of life, most importantly, i got to be much stronger after different incidents, heartbreaks, tears, laughters, everything.

School life was great, friends are always there to make me laugh, and most importantly, make school days enjoyable. I've been through stress, especially the period when im struggling with my art piece. I am very regretful for what i did to Mdm Fatimah, and i hope she'll get to read this and Im so sorry Mdm Fat, i'll always remember you ^.^

Friends, i met new friends, i found my old-time bestfriend, Joyce. Friends come and go, but i appreciate those who stayed by my side and go through difficult moments with me. :) I love friends! ^^

Love life, i will never compare my both relationship, but i will always understand, who truely loves me and who doesn't. I don't understand lies and truths, all i know is because of one of my ex, i chose to live in a world of lies and now im like a girl who can't accept the truths. But its alright, afterall i deserve these maybe, i'm lettin go, but still i wanna thanks Hazmi & Ayun. Thanks for making the effort to make me smile when im down, i do love you guys. And not forgetting too, Nelson chua! :]

Bestfriends. Thanks for everything, especially Hazmi, Fana & Fadhila. 3 of you are the best, thanks alot! I hope 3 of you won't forget me cause i will never ever forget my Pork, My pendek, and my Mummy bohsia!! :D :D

Sisters. Sera, Cammie, Emma, Victoria, Esther, Wenhui, Ahling, Kristlyn, thanks girls. I am so glad that i met you girls, i love you all. sisters4lyfe. :D \m/

Brothers. Gummy, Jieming. Only both of you, haha! Thanks for making the effort to make me feel better, best brothers ever :)

Shakir, Farris, Suhaimi, Sri, Ira boinboin, Alastair, Fahmi, Huzaifah, Tina, Yingying, Cheryl, Vivien, Aslina, Sidek, Vera, Yimling and whoever sees this, especially my loyal readers. I'd like to apologize for everything that i've done that i've did. Hopefully 2010 will be a great year for us.

2009 was more of a bad year for me, but i believe that 2010 will be much better! I'll be stucked inside a air-conditioned room for the whole year, more like a loner to be exact. Hahaha, but still, i hope 2010 will be a grrrrreat year and i'll be 17 next year!!

AISEY MAN, 17 FOREVER \M/ HAHAHAHA!!!

So yeah till here, bye! :D

I don't know how to accept this.

2009-12-31T10:41:00.002+08:00

So hi everyone. Im still angry over last night i must get rid of this fuming atmosphere of mine by tonight, or rather before Gummy & Cammie comes over! :D So yeah, after this post, i shall go and get a bath and head to Bpp for brother's school shoes & lunch ;)

Shall talk about last night then. After going offline after having msn chats with Arian, Aryna & Cammie. I went to bangkit and get dinner. Then when going home, pendek call me and she got to happy when i told her what she asked me to do. Haha, dumb shit, you're one lucky girl man seriously, haha!!

Then went to watch movie and went to bed at 3am. Was extremely angry till i cried, its the first time ever i cried cause im fucking angry. Lol, can imagine? :O Then i went to sleep after that unknowingly. :P

Woke up at 10+, brushed teeth and stone -.- HAHA, then now im using laptop :D :D And yes, dedications and whinings will be posted up next, loads of pictures too, haha.

So till here then, and readers, don't mind me for the last night's post, im sorry for all those swearing words, haha :/ I was angry, what to do? :O

fucked up face with a fucking attitude being a fucker.

2009-12-31T00:00:00.002+08:00

AH YES FUCK YOU. IM FUCKING GOD DAMN FUCK UP. I FEEL LIKE FUCKING SLAPPING YOUR BLOODY FUCKING FACE. PLEASE KINDLY FUCK YOURSELF AND FUCKING GET A NEW LIFE.

I THINK IM GOING TO BE MUCH FUCKING BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE. FUCKING SHIT, PLAYER. PLEASE LEH EH, NABEH, KUA HO HO LAH HOR, WA EMILY TAN, DIONG GIM LABEL YOU AS HONGSTER LAH HOR, NABEH!

MAY 2010 WILL BE A GREAT YEAR FOR YOU SUCKER!!!!! GO TO HELL AND ROT! KARMA WILL HAPPEN TO YOU SOON!

CIAO SUCKER!!!!! _1_

Your bones, your beauty.

2009-12-30T20:17:00.006+08:00

Okay second post for today. So yeah, shall not waste time already ^.^

Slept at 3am last night and woke up at 8.30am today, very sleepy so i went back to sleep, haha! So my mom woke me up again and i went to bath straight away, then went for interview by car. Then when i stepped into the office, i was dumbfounded, :/ Cause the room smell like rotton onions (Fana should know what i meant, haha inside joke!!!)

Then i sat down like a nerd, filled up some form, went into the room and talk to the boss (?) and then he asked alot of questions, then he told me i was employed and this is our conversation.

Boss : Okay, so Emily you can start work on the 4th next year. *smile*
Me : Ah? Next year?!
Boss : Yeah, which is next week.
Me : Next week?! *in mind think, wah cb, so fast 2012 ah?"
Boss : Now is still 2009.
Me : Oh yeah, smile*

I know im god damn stupid but hahahah whatever :P Then i left, went to look for Dad, Mom & Eugene. Then went to mom's shop, online, then headed off to Jurong East. Met Vivien, Ying & Cheryl. Then Ying alighted as she got to work while 3 of us headed to Simei.

Took 5 to Tamp ITE. On the bus, we saw this guy who is kinda not normal like us, he dropped his bag and he said "Opps, sorry" very loudly and me and Vivien straight away laugh, i know its mean and rude, but seriously, its god damn fucking funny, lol!!! Registered, took photo, bought uniform. Cheryl bought those, not me and Vivien as we are taking traineeship :O Then what i hated the most when its payment period, fuck man, we queued for 45 minutes!!! Stupid or what, bodoh banana. _1_ Haha, then pay already, went back by 67 while Vivien took 168 to Bedok.

Went to Timah, then bought dinner home and went seperate ways, took picture but lazy to upload :/ So yeah, haha. Right now im on msn with Fana & Yihui. And i got a post for Fana :D :D

Eh pendek, you know something? You these few days seems so worried about your ITE or rather 4th January. Everything's gonna be fine, trust me. You're such a cute lil short girl (LOL) and i promise you, its gonna be so easy for you to make new friends ;) Don't be afraid la bitch, you ah make me sad also sia!! My workplace is even worse, Onion + adults = mampus!! So yeaaaah, what's handphone for huh?! Don't be sad okay bff?! I promise you i won't lose contact with you, no matter WHAT! HAHAHAHA ^.^ LOVE YOU O.O

So this is Yihui, and we somehow look alike siaaaaaah :O HAHAHA!! So shocking!! Okay la, im lame zzz. So yeah, just now Emma pendek send me something and she said it was meant for our ex-boyfriends, lol! And so here it goes ;

I thought we would be together for so long
You were so sweet and charming with your words you said.
But something happened I don't know what went wrong
I cried so hard just lying in my bed.

k bye..

Last night, i saw you and i cried.

2009-12-30T12:36:00.003+08:00

Okay, im at purmei now. using my mom's computer and im leaving soon. :) well, i went for a interview today and oh my god, the office's staff is like so old and im like the youngest!!!? Also no handsome guys, sian ji pua can -_- HAHAHAHA kidding :P

Shall continue when im at home then, hehe bai.

last night when i saw you, my heart skipped a beat. k kidding. ahahah bye.

2nd postz

2009-12-29T21:17:00.003+08:00

So second post, short post. Tpmorrow, i've got to wear a skirt for interview, damn it -__- Hmm, apparently, my day are boring as ever, parents are back today by 1 hour earlier and means i've got to shut my laptop at 10 and my mom wants to use the laptop :/

Means i have to remove some junks off my laptop in case she sees it, im dead x_x Haha no joke, i will be dead x_x LOL!!

I can't wait for tomorrow's interview frankly speaking, hopefully i'll get it. :) Nothing much to post lately, i've been updating my tumblr and i fucking hate the tumblarity, hahahah, okay whatever.

So yeaaaaaaaah, im done with my second post!! Hehe bye.

So crazy, cause i need you with me.

2009-12-29T15:25:00.002+08:00

Okay, im done with Ira & Nelson's blogskin. Well, now im in love with Nelson's blogsong, and i'm going to download later'on, haha :P

So last night, i ate my breakfast + lunch + dinner @ 2am, and its just a bowl of maggie. Haha awesome ah!? Okay, because of this, Nelson scolded me for like 15 minutes non-stop. -,- And if i don't have my meals, he will ____ __ alive. :S HAHAHAA, NOBDOY WILL KNOW THIS. LOL.

Last night, while eating, me and my bro saw 1 fucking giant coackroach. Okay la, not giant, but big la, compared to a normal coackroach. And omg, when i see that, i was fucking scared and jump up on the sofa, so does my brother. Haha and i called Gummy & Nelson and what they said was "Kill it la!" But i don't have the courage to do so, lol.

Then in the end its dead, hahahahahah!! Then quickly eat already went to room. Then slept at 3am, 1 hour earlier. :P Lmao, then slept till 9+ and mom called.

Woke dad up and went back to sleep. Then woke up at 12+ and wash up, bath, msn :) Help Ira & Nelson with their blogskins, and then msn with Fana. She got me so sad uh, but what to do, this is part of life.. :) So yeah, Fana don't brood over it too much okie! ^^ Love you 2themax. :-)

Thanks to those friends who worried for my ITE courses, thanks for gettin stress up for me too when i didn't got any course. Hah, i know you guys won't get to read this, but still thanks. I've already sign up for traineeship course, i got no choice either, so i'll just take and see how it goes. And im going for an interview tomorrow at 10am, and shucks, it early right x.x

But fuck care uh, just go only zzz. Means i have to sleep by 2am today, if not tomorrow confirm late!! HAHA, its at Bukit Merah for god damn sake. -__-

Okay, i'll blog again later then, bye!

You, are the only one. Me, are like anyone to you.

2009-12-28T21:20:00.005+08:00

Okay im back. Shall not waste time and start blogging about today ;)

So i went out at 12+ today and headed to Emma's crib, borrowed her earpiece and walk to Pending and waited for 700. While waiting, was on the phone with Sera. Then board the bus already, met Shuyan, Joanna, Christina, GuoBin & Weiseng. Alighted at i-don't-know which bustop.

Then walk to Cine, bought tickets, met Jieming and his friends there, haha. Then waved hi to him and off to Kofu. Bought this fucking expensive ribena which cost $2.20 while Joanna's cost for $1.50!! I was so shocked when our cup is at the same size but not the price -.- zzz

Then went to arcade, walk around, and went to level 6. Waited for Zhiling and went in. Watched Alvin & The Chipmunks 2 and i rate it 10/10. Its super funny and cute! Well i can hear Joanna's laughter very clearly, haha!

I want to watch Avatar next, with Fahmi as today he asked me out but i am going with Shuyan and co so i rejected him :/ And he is so sad, hahaha i owe you k Fahmi :) Be happy that this whole paragraph is for you k samdol!! ^^

Then after that, went to ION. Then Zhiliang left!! :@ Haha, then we took pictures and we left for Tang Plaza, and then to Paragon. :( Then to bustop and home!! :D

While on the way home, i was staring at my phone's screensaver and was in thought. I almost almost cried but nasib Gerald message me, if not omg, awkward siah x.x" Hahaha, then alighted first and went home, went to Bangkit immdiately. Then to Emma's crib.

Walk home, bath, online. Msn with Yanna Slayer, Ira Meimei, Cammie Sist, Guobin, Thasvin. Last night, i slept at 4 again. Nelson wanted to call me but too bad, haha his house phone kisiao, rofl :/ So yeah, today i got no mood again.. :(

I miss you, terribly. You know?

Fucking rubbish!

2009-12-28T11:03:00.003+08:00

Fuck the system, fuck the system, you suck! Go and fuck yourself, fucking shit. Fucking shit, fucking spoilt my mood, fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! _1_

Okay this is what happen, the courses that i've applied, was unsuccessful, yes all the 5 courses. I was so shocked when i saw that and i thought im dreaming. Fuck my life, seriously.

And now im going to force myself to take the fucking math test, so fucked up. Seriously, i fucking hate math, and i swear, imma flunk it! I hate it when people ask me to do stuffs that i dislikes. Urgh.

Gonna head town later on, and after lunch time which is around 2pm, i am gonna call up ITE and fuck them up! AAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! I HATE PROBLEMSZ.

Firstly is my personal problems, now ITE, what's up next? :O Fuck yourself first before coming to me, please fuck up stuffsz. _!_

FUCK ALL THIS SHITS! IM NOT GOING TO REPLY/ANSWER ALL THE CALLS/TEXTS.

Amazing yet saddening

2009-12-27T21:38:00.001+08:00

So i came across this story on tumblr, and i cried after that. I've changed my blogsong after this post, i know im silly, lol. but seriously, this story hurts me, and i hope its not real... :)

Boy: Baby, we need to talk.
Girl: Ricardo, what do u mean?
Boy: Something has come up…
Girl: What? What’s wrong? Is it bad?
Boy: I don’t want to hurt you, baby.
Girl: *Thinks* Oh my God, I hope he doesnt break up with me… I love him so much.
Boy: Baby, are you there??
Girl: Yeah, I’m here. What is so important??
Boy: I’m not sure if I should say it..
Girl: Well, you already brought it up, so please just tell me.
Boy: I’m leaving…
Girl: Baby, what are u talking about?? I don’t want you to leave me, I love you.
Boy: Not like that, I mean I’m moving far away.
Girl: Why? All of your famliy lives over here.
Boy: Well, my father is sending me away to a boarding school far away.
Girl: I can’t believe this.
[FATHER: (Picks up the other phone, interrupts & yells furiously
ERICA!, what did I tell you about talking to boys?!!!… Get off the
damn phone!! (And hangs up).

Boy: Wow, your father sounds really mad.
Girl: You know how he gets, but anyways, I dont want you to go.
Boy: Would you run away with me?
Girl: Baby, you know I would, I would do anything for you, but I can’t… You don’t know what would happen if I did. My dad would kill me!
Boy: *Sad* It’s okay.. I understand, I guess..
Girl: *Thinking*I can’t believe what’s going on.
Boy: I need to give you something tonite, because I am leaving on
flight 1-80 in the morning, so I need to see you now.
Girl: Okay, I will sneak out & meet you at the park.
Boy: Okay, I’ll meet you there in 20 minutes.
[They meet at a nearby park, they both hug eachother. And he gives
her a note.]
Boy: Here you go, this is for you. I gotta go.
Girl: *Tear* (Begins to cry.)
Boy: Baby, dont cry, you know I love you… But I have to go.
Girl: Okay (Begins to walk away.)
[They both go back home. And Erica begins to read the letter he gave her]
It says…
“Erica,

You probably already know that I’m leaving, I knew this would be better if I wrote a letter explaining the truth about how much I care about you. The truth is, is that I never loved you, I hated you so much, you are my bitch and dont you ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, and be around you. You really have no clue how much I hate you. Now that I’m leaving I thought you should know that I hate you, bitch. You never did the
right thing, and you were never there. I didnt think I could hate someone as much as I hate you. And I never want to see you, for the rest of my life, I will never miss kissing you like before, I never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and that’s a promise. You never had my love, and I want you to remember that. Bitch, you keep this letter because this may be the last thing you have from me. Fuck, I hate you so much. I will not talk to you soon bitch… Goodbye.
- Ricardo”

[ Erica begins to cry, she throws the paper in tha garbage & crys for hours ]
… A day passes, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely… Then she gets a phone call….

Friend: How are you feeling?
Girl: I just cant believe this happened.. I thought he loved me.
Friend: Oh, about that. Ricardo left me a message. A few days ago. He told me to tell you to look in your jacket pocket or something…
Girl: Umm.. okay.
[She finds a piece of paper in the jacket,
It says:
“Baby I hope you find this before you read my letter. I knew your dad might read it, so I switched a few words…
Hate = Love
Never = Always
Bitch = Baby
Will not= will
…. I hope you didn’t take that seriously because I love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats why I wanted you to run away with me… -Ricardo”]

Girl: Oh my God! It’s a letter.. Ricardo does love me!!, he must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I can’t believe how stupid I am!!

Friend: lol Okay but I g2g… Call me later.
Girl: *happy*okay, bye, I’ll be at home waiting for my baby to call me!
… Erica turns the T.V. on……

[Breaking news] “An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for survivors… This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80… it was on its way to an all boys boarding school…” the Reporter says.
[ She turns off the t.v. … 3 days later, she kills herself, because of the fact that Ricardo was dead & she had nothing to live for… ]

… A day after that the phone rings. Nobody answers. It was Ricardo, he called to leave a message. “Its Ricardo, I guess you’re not home so, I called to let you know that I’m alive, I missed my flight because I had to see you one last time. So, I hope your not worried. I am staying for good...

Things ain't getting any better

2009-12-27T17:43:00.002+08:00

Okay, im done with my dinner but not bath. So i'll go for a bath after this ;) Hmm today is 27th and its a very important day for my bro and his girlfriend, da 1 year dok! Haha, congratulations bro! :) I hope you and Aiyin will last long okay, and hope mom won't mistake Aiyin as Ayun & Ayun as Aiyin anymore, haha! Okay whatever -__-

So im heading to town tomorrow, and seriously speaking, im feeling happy yet sad. Happy is that i am meeting my primary school mates and hang out after for not meeting each other for like 4 years and we're meeting like tomorrow!! HAHA. Sad is that we're heading town, yes town... Okay whateverrrrrrr. :P

So today, i woke up at 1.04pm. And last night i slept at 4am. Can't sleep last night as something is bothering me, how i wish i was smart. Okay what am i talking sia, wtf.

So i was on msn with Thasvin & Emma just now, we were talking about class outing for 4D. And yes, 3 of us are planning it, so any enquiries, do visit the class blog @ http://fo-urd.blogspot.com or check my/your facebook events. ^^ Hehe and teachers are coming too, can't wwwwait!!

So yeah, now currently waiting for Thasvin to get back to me asap as i need him now. Thasvin!!! FASTER SMS/CALL ME!!! YOU DUMB SHIT! HAHAHAHHAHAHA JOKES! :P

Okay so im done with my post, so yeah and yes, he finally contacted me, lol! Oh and yes, my prepaid is gonna be low soon, and i don't think imma get it topp-ed up. So yeah, hahaha i'll see how then! :)

Okay, im done. No mood now, bye.

Urgh i hate this fucking feeling

2009-12-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

okay apparently i can't get to sleep. and there's this stranger who added me on msn and his/her name is "Ice". i think i shall name myself "Fire" to make it nicer, okay sacarstic and lame. okay what the fuck, she is my aunt, lol. fuck my life, im so ill-mannered. lol.

im feeling so mixed, so upset. tonight is not going to be a good night. im being so fucking emotional now, lol dumbshit.

k goodnight, im on your facebook naow. haizcxz.

Emily Tan Hui Yi, you better fucking move on from now onwards!!! FUCK.

Please get out of my mind.

2009-12-26T18:50:00.003+08:00

Okay hello readers ;) Shall not waste time and start blogging already, im so tired x.x" So today i woke up by brother's yelling and i was angry with him cause he suddenly came into my room and shouted "CHEH CHEH, WAKE UP!!!" And i was like "WTF LA!" HAHAHAHAHA.

Then woke up, wash up, bath. Then dad drove us to Greenridge primary, then me and Brother alighted. Bought his books and fuck, its so fucking heavy, almost killed my right hand, lol. Then headed to Greenridge and had lunch settled there, ate KFC and one of the motorist look like aliff aziz and i thought it was him and i stared at him all the way. HAHAH, then he stare back and he smile to me, i was like "chey, not aliff la" Lmao, haha!

Then ate already, walk to Jelapang and train back home. Reach home, then went to Yewtee's Mac and meet Fadhila, Kamilah, Michelle & Suhaimi. Then around 4.30pm me and Fadhila left, cabbed to meet her mom, then took photos :]

Then 307 to Yewtee, hugged her mom and Fadhila of course! Then we went seperate way, i feel like crying when im hugging Fadhila and ohmygod, i feel so kid. I want Fadhila to come back, if not imma kill her! LOL.

Then train back home, change to Lrt and alighted at Petir, bought dinner for grandma. Then walk back home. While walking back, i feel so.... sad ;( Cause i use to walk and buy dinner with him and now im alone. So that's the reason why im always rejecting my brother if he were to ask me to get dinner instead of him, so much memories seriously.. :(

Last night i was chatting with bff. And last night i was pondering over what we are talking, i did cried, i felt much much better after crying. As for tonight, i hope its gonna be a good night for me. I miss you alot, and i doubt you did, right dude?

Like what Samdol always say, if don't have boyfriend, takpe. Scandal for what. (LOL!!)
Like what bff say, must be strong, life is hard but bff will be there for me.
Like what Gummy & Cammie say, must be "jual mahal" :D
Like what Nelson say, single is the best.

I hope i can do it although is fucking hard for me. But once again, i do miss you alot. And i got no idea how to live with it..?

familiar feeling of mine.

2009-12-25T21:01:00.002+08:00

Okay, im feeling kinda sad now, i think im going to cry tonight again. Im really feeling very down, i feel so fucking alone.

Why am i so unlucky? Let me elaborate for you whats the meaning of unlucky.
Why am i born into a girl when im suppose to be a boy and this led to my grandma having hatred in me?
Why am i always the one who's gettin hurt, taking all the blames, the one who always gives in.
Why is it that im not being appreciated by people whom i love most?
Why... why is there so many "why" within my mind?
Why can't i be happy?

If you guys was my loyal reader since year 2007/2008, you people will know what did i went through. I've been much stronger, i must admit. I never had the chance to really be happy for more than 5 months straight. I often had problems within myself, and i hate it to share because im afraid of people mocking. Low self esteem, is what i have.

I know i should never let this break up to affect me, i know i should be much stronger and learn from this failed relationship and expect better conclusion when im ready for another relationship. It is hard on me but not you.

You know the best, you should know very well whether is it hard for you. You, the second guy whom i love the most, its my fault for not being good enough, but its your fault for leaving too soon. You, do you know that you hurt me so badly? You, do you know that i am trying my best to smile every now and then? You, do you know how do i feel deep inside my heart? You, will you ever take the initiative to read my blog and know how am i everyday?

does anyone know?

Mr favourite of mine left.

2009-12-25T10:56:00.005+08:00

Hello, first of all, i wanna wish all my readers Merry Christmas!! Hehe, lol. So last night, i went to Aunt hillary's crib and celebrated Christmas as well as Grandma's birthday!! :) It was so amazing as there's so many many food!! HAHAHA. 8)

So this is how it goes. Firstly i left home with Edmus around 3+ while Eugene headed to City Harvest Church with Aiyin. Then we cabbed to Mom's shop and waited for Dad to arrive then Dad drove us to Bedok where Auntie Hillary's crib is at. Throughout the trip, dad asked about me and you-know-who-they-are. And i told him, we broke off.

And he was like "Why? How come? I thought you and Hazmi long?"
I was like "Ah? Got meh? Aiya, over liao, nevermind."
Then he asked about Ayun, and he said "Then the cute cute de leh? Also broke up already?"
I was like, "No la, married. Of course break la! *laugh*"
My dad was like "Haiyo.. Then you got cry anot? Among this 2 breakup, which one you cried the most?" And i said "Er, Hazmi."

Lmao, my dad is so cute -_- HAHAHA. Then we reach Aunt's crib already, greeted uncle and aunties, then off to play Wii. Was kinda boring cause i was the only teenager and i seem to be too old among my cousins and too young among the women's talk. LOL. So i just stone there, so poor thing -_- Told ya, Fana! 80% boring!!! HAHAHA.

Then went to Kembangan with Aunt Hillary to fetch Eugene. Then head back to her crib. Then stayed till 10+ and headed home. [: Oh yeah, presents were given too!! ^.^ HAHA, headed back home, bath, watch tv till 1+

Slept straight away, seriously very very tired :X Then messages was coming in and i end up didn't replying them and fell asleep, hahaha!

Then had a terrible dream, seriously i hated that dream, its so fucking sad. And fuck, in the dream, both of us was fighting like crazy bitch and bastard, in the middle of the road, and then we straight away broke ties & we went seperate ways. Fucking shit, i hate this dream! But! Dreams are opposite, don't they? Haha, i hope so then ;)

So tonight Fadhila's coming over again! ^.^ Ohmygay, i miss her man! And she's going back to Malaysia tomorrow, but nevermind, we still got the whole night :]

Im so bored naow, so today's 25th! Hmm, i can't wait for the gathering which is planned by Shuyan, haha yay primary school mates gathering! ^.^V I can't wait to seeeeeee all of youuuuuu!! HEHE, YAY. & we're gonna watch Alvin And The Chipmunks!!! :D

Finally we're watching that, i've been hoping that i can watch that ever since 18th december, lol.
I came across this quote on Tumblr and it goes like this..

You can love two person at the same time but never in the same degree.

I guess, this applies to me. To be frank, i love 2 person right now. I know im such a dumb girl. But of course, i should start to move on as this 2 person whom i am in love with, one of them is in love with other girl, while the other one doesn't want to be more than our status now. So what to do?! MOVE ON SUAAAAAAAAA. ya right, its easier to talk than proving it. Fuck this, i hate denialzxsz _1_

bitter yet sweet, short yet long.

2009-12-24T12:27:00.003+08:00

Okay im here to post for today and i think this will be my only post for today? Firstly, i fucking hate my internet now, fucking firefox's screen is too small and i can't change my theme for my tumblr. Urgh fuck this _1_

Okay basically last night i met Ayun and passed him the sony ericsoon charger and usb. And guess what?! My mom lost the other charger and i got no charger now. Damn stupid lah me, now my battery left 8% only, omg. So i won't be replying messages/answering calls for this afternoon.

Suppose to go to Dover this morning with Ayun for his application for ITE. But i can't make it due to something, kinda fucked up uh, nevermind forget about it. :(

Currently on facebook, can't wait for 28th dec. Been recieve-ing the text that says that i made them smiles in the year 2009. Im sorry that i'm able to reply/forward as my battery's gonna die on me very very soon. So i'll forward it tonight okay! [:

Im fucking hungry now, on msn with Shehnaz right now, and we're discussing about drama's outing. Kinda eager to plan and make it an enjoyable one.

k la, bye.

do you know that i lend my charger to you on purpose cause i want to see you badly?
afterall, i hope its worth it, don't break my heart.

cry me a river and sail yourself to death.

2009-12-23T22:54:00.003+08:00

I think the way i blogs changed :O Apparently, this is my 3rd post for today, im feeling so pathetic and attention-seeking too. Stupid me -__-

today i was thinking while trying to form a quote by myself. and this is how it goes, sounds stupid but to me its nice, ha ha.

this is me, the only me. if you can’t handle my attitude, my flaws, my ugly side, then its an yes that you don’t deserve me.

how is it? i find it super nice, hehe. but only 1 person reblog me -_- haha who cares, as long as i like it! im still down, argh fuck this feeling x.x"

lastly, i got no idea why am i blogging, i just hate blogging and yet i feel like blogging. haha scorpions, what can you say.. they are mysterious O-O!

im leaving on the 31st, and i hope, you will catch me before i leaves. :'(

uncontrollable mucus.

2009-12-23T19:41:00.002+08:00

Uhuh, mucus are coming out of my nose like nobody's fucking business. I fucking hate flu and yes, im going have flu again like fuck! _1_ Urgh, i hate flu! Fuck!

Right now, im on msn with Fana. And people let me tell you all something, my right side of my nose is fucking irritating, its so itchy and i feel like digging it, hahahahhaah omg im gross x.x

Time now is 7.56pm. Im wondering whether has the plane landed? *shrugs* Forget it, im feeling very bad now, my nose is gonna fucking kill me tonight.

you know i miss you darling, you know i do. and i often ask myself, this is only one sided, and there's no point of me waiting any longer. you can love, you don't want. you can't love, you want. how complicated can this be? love is the most scariest thing in earth yet people loves to give it a try no matter how scary is it, fuck this fact.

gonna be out tomorrow for the whole day, like finally!! gonna head to mom's shop and then to aunt's house at bedok! hopefully my flu will be gone by tomorrow morning, if not i'll be so fucking grumpy for the whole day x.x"

im so sad naow, as in since when i woke up, i don't know why and i won't say why and neither will i go and brood over it.

So people, go and fuck yourself, bye!

Lonely nights

2009-12-23T14:26:00.003+08:00

Just passed by my old-time clique's blog. Seeing the latest post, latest tag by Vivien makes me sad. Its the truth that we don't hang out already, im always not with you guys, reason is i feel weird, we don't seem to be talking about the same topic or whatsoever, that's why, i left. i know you guys will read this, *smile*

I've always want to let you guys know that i don't mean it. We use to be close, like what i said, use to. Now we're heading different ways, Tina is going to Sec 5 (AND IM PROUD OF HER ^^) Vivien, Ying, Cheryl & myself are heading to ITE.

Cheryl called me last night, we talked about those courses, and after hanging up, i felt that the period when i was on the phone with Cheryl was so short, yet long. Bitter yet sad. We have nothing to talk about other than ITE courses. Pathetic huh? :( Im so sad, but its okay. I know 5 of us will be back once again!! :D

It takes time, looking back, we've grew up. I first know you all was when im 13 year old. Now im 16, and seriously, we are gettin old, x.x" HAHAHAH, kidding! :P Well, no worries okay darlings, i love you all still, afterall, we had the good and bad memories, we fight alot but we always get back together afterall :] I love Tina, Vivien, Cheryl & Yingying ;)

So today! I woke up at 12.34pm. Shiok 2themax! Hmm last night i had 3 different dreams. And people on Tumblr says that if they were to appear in your dream, it means that they want to see you. So and yes, i dream about him, a different him, that him. HAHA K WHATEVER.

So today is 23rd and Ayun is coming back, hopefully not after 4pm, cause he've yet applied for his ITE and the deadline is at 5pm. God damn it, now the time is 2.48pm and wtf, i hope he can make it. I know im abit stupid to get so stress up when we already broke off. But.. urgh forget it okay, i hate talking about these, it makes me sad :(

Okay shut the fuck up Em. Haha, i was on MSN with Shehnaz baby just now, and yes we are planning a Christmas party for Drama Society. Can't wait maaaaaan! Haha, hope it goes well then, mehehehe!

Hmm, tomorrow family gathering, can't wait <: Food foooooooooood!!! AHAHAHA.

I've changed my blogsong, and one of the song name "My Love - Justin Timberlake" make me think of Fahmi, i got no idea why too, hahaha! I swear im god damn stupid last night, but Fahmi managed to make me feel good by saying something sweet, haha! And i was texting with Eddy's bro, Daniel last night, and i swear, he is another chinese guy who i can get along with, cause normally when im texting with Chinese guys, i'd get bored and stop those textings, bahaha.

I am not racist okay, fuck all those who says im being a racist who only goes for malay guys (one of my msn friend said that im a racist cause i only go for malay guys, boo)

Ah so bored, bye for now. Catch me on tumblr ;)

Drama queens with slashes over their faces

2009-12-22T17:29:00.002+08:00

Okay im here to blog again for the 2nd time in less then 3 hours, hahahah! And pardon me for my title for this post, very random i know, but its cool right? :)

I love my blogskin and blogsong now, i don't know why do i feel so random, simple yet hyper. Seriously bored, my body ache terribly, geeeez :(

Im currently msning with God I Love Ari :) Hahaha, nobody can figure this out i think? I took 2 days to figure it out, rofl.

Omg, my bffl knows me super well, he is god damn cb, keep calling me tetek head, stupid dick. So bored nowwwwwwwwwww.

So fucking bored, urgh. K la, im not going to blog again for today, wait for tomorrow then. Eh tomorrow 23rd eh?! Omgawd, time flies~

Yay, going to Aunt's house on the 24th for Christmas party & Grandma's birthday!! :] Can't wait to see my pretty & handsome cousins! :D

IM DONE FOR TODAY'S POST, BUAIZ.

14th day.

2009-12-22T15:47:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone, time now is 4.02pm. Shall not waste time already. :)

Today i woke up at 1pm+ and i went to wash up and came online. Today suck to the max, i hate today, i don't know why, i seem to hate everyday, yes every single day, haha!

I feel like changing my blogskin, and i think i shall change it naow. Haha bye.

What's in my heart ain't in your mind.

2009-12-21T20:45:00.002+08:00

Okay im here to post! :) Shall talk about today completely, each and every part okay! :)

Woke up at 7am+ by Fadhila. Then wash up, got ready for the morning jog. Wah sibeh shag man. Let me tell you where we ran. We started running from the Soccer Court behind Pending till the 2.4km route (the bungalows there) and we ran pass Chestnut drive, then ran down to Assumption then rain pass Assumption Pathway then ran in to Cashew Road and then run back to my block. Its like a big one round and i swear, i walked more than i ran. HAHAHA!!

I suck in this seriously, i hate waking up and then start to run -_- Then went home, change shoes to slipper and headed to Coffee Shop, mcm auntie sia! HAHA. Then went back home, online. Then both of us fought on the msn while she used my laptop and im using the desktop, she so bitch!! HAHAHA.

Then i helped her to fold her clothes, packed her luggage, teach her how to fold clothings!! Wah, she noob sia! HAHAHA! Then i went to bath, trained to Teck Whye. Met Gummy and then took 307 to Cck. Headed to level 2, and met Fadhila's mom. <:

Her mom so friendly! HAHA, then we headed to Food Culture and ate ;) Then told her siblings her nicknames in order to protect themselves! HAHAHA. Then me and Gummy left and headed to Bangkit.

Then bought some things and headed to my block to slack. Then went home after that ;) Reach home, changed, online. Here i am ;)

Right now msning with Fana & Emma. Texting with Idris ;) Im so bored naow, last night i can't sleep. I am so worried over something and gosh, im being asked that why do i care so much. Geeeeez, why i like thaaaaaaat D:

I can't wait for 23rd, 24th and 29th! :D Hehe, and Fadhila's leaving on the 26th :( I had fun with her these few days over at my crib, seriously, she made me laugh like mad last night. Haha! And i missed her already! :(

Okay la, bye!

2009-12-21T11:16:00.002+08:00

i feel so upset.
i am so worried.
i am feeling very weird.
i have the urge to change my blogskin but i love this skin as Victoria Sist did it for me. (luv!)

i feel like going out to lepak.
fadhila's leaving later, gonna miss her.

yesterday she make me laugh like hell when im praying, damn her.
haha! and yes, today i went jogging with her and im half dead.

i think my stamina suck to the core, and im gettin lazier and fatter!!!!!!!! :(
today we ran past CDSS! ^^ hehe.

im addicted to coke and its a bad thing, as Gerald use to say that Coke suck. HAHAHA.

Im being so random nao. buai~

Editted @ 1.21pm.

I've applied for ITE already.

And this is the 5 courses, lollllll. All clementi sia! HAHA.

Office is my 1st choice.
Culinary is my 2nd.
Food & Breverage is my 3rd.
Retail is my 4th.
While tourism is my 4th choice! :)

I hope i gets either one, like duh! HAHAHA. K la, bye!

I miss you again.

2009-12-20T19:08:00.003+08:00

So, shall talk about last night. :)

Slept at 3+ and Huzai called Fadhila. And what i thought was "Confirm mabok." HAHA. Then he talked to me and he told me something which made me so upset with myself. :( But its okay! Then he talked to Huzai while i went to sleep.

Today, woke up at 12pm, called Fana. Then bath, ate chicken rice then head out to Pending to meet Fana :) Then headed to Greenridge and had Fadhila's hair cut and im so jealous, her hair is so "scene" like and its so hawt! Haha! ;P Supposed to meet Fahmi samdol, but then he sleeping, what a pig!! ZZZZZZ!! HAHAHA. (Hope he won't see this)

Then we went to Banquet and had Fana's lunch settled there, then we went to Cck, headed to the rooftop, then watch kids playing bubbles -_- Then called up bestfriend and i answered, i was so happy to hear bestfriend's voice!!! :D :D HEHE!

Then went to bus interchange and waited for Suhaimi. Then bought ice-cream after going to Courts. Then walk to Farris's block. Wah, his face.... MOUSE! Hahahahah! Then slacked there, and Farris is so nice to ask whether am i ok.. and he kept asking and asking till i said "IM OK!" HAHAHA.

Then we left around 5.45 and trained to Pending while Fana alighted at Phoenix. Went to Bangkit, bought dinner. Then walked back.

Reach home, online. Today im very sad, i cried infront of Fana, Fadhila & Suhaimi. Omg, so paisey. -_- Sorry ah guys, i cannot tahan sia, i finally cried. LMAO.

How long is this gonna last? Will you forget about me? Will you remember what you said?

11th day.

2009-12-19T13:15:00.004+08:00

So last night, i had a talk with my mom. I wanted to took Pastry course and my parents was kinda not satisfied with my choices so they asked me to choose somemore and they'll see how. I got no idea what to take.

Was on Msn with Hazmi last night and he was disappointed in my results and he went "wah... you!!!" HAHAHA, as usual. :) Was also on Msn with Khamirul Bffl a.k.a God I Love Ari. HAHA. Then chatted with him and he is still sacarstic and funny too, and he never fail to ask me to stay single.

Went to Bangkit with Fadhila last night and she kept scolding me "stupid" for no reason, haha! Then bought food and also big glup! And i so kental when she wanted to mix Coke, Ice Lemon Tee & 1OOPlus. Cause i was afraid of lao-sai, haha! LOL. Then she still insisted, so she went to mix it and she let me tried, and wtf, its nice. LMAO! Then we laugh so loud in the 7Eleven, lol!

Then we walk back and had our dinner at 12am -.- Then after eating, we stayed at the living room... Doing.... Not what you thinking la, we were talking. :) Then while talking, i was texting with Nelson and he said he will cook maggie for me again, and this time he say it will be tasty, lol! Haha, the last time i met him was on the 30th December 2008. So now, 30th december, meet? Haha!

Then Fadhila fell asleep and i continued to text with Nelson. Till about 2+ we both went to sleep. Then today i woke up at around 10+. Then bought my dog out of my room as Fadhila is somehow scared of its saliva -_- Then brought him out already, then packed our rooms. Then wash clothes and now we are stuck at home, cause its raining and we can't go to Bangkit for Popiah and Rojak! T.T And we haven't bath too, hahahah!

I've forced myself to admit the fast that was stated 10 days ago, shall not talk about it, its so *$$#*#@&&$!!!! So yup, skip this!

I went to Bangkit with Fadhila just now and we ate our breakfast/Lunch/dinner there, lol! Had fun too! We laughed and someone told me he loved me and i was fucking shocked. And i shouted and Fadhila got shocked, haha!

Im feeling very confused now, i feel like taking the chopper at chop all those guys out there who don't know how to treat girls! I got no idea whether am i sad or happy, i said i wanna move on, but i got no idea what am i going to do in the future, or after tonight..

Im officially lost, i got no idea how do i feel afterall. I sound so emo, and my blogsongs also so emo, wahpiang -_- So not me!

I WANT THE OLD ME!!!!!!!!!!! :'(

Cry me out.

2009-12-18T19:41:00.004+08:00

Okay im here to post. Today's post will be a long but short post, rofl -.- Haha, i got no idea what am i saying either, haha! :/

Today i woke up at 9am, i used the laptop till 10.30am. Then i headed out to Bangkit to help my dad to deposit his money and went back home. Then off to Phoenix and finally Ayun called me. He overslept and after going to Phoenix i headed to 137 and met him up.

Then Ilham, Yanto came. Then Shafiq. Then i went back home to meet Fadhila and helped her with her stuffs and then meet Ayun and co again. Teman Ayun to have his hair cut with Shafiq. And while waiting, my gastric almost fucking killed me, i nearly fell asleep and i didn't dare to, i scared i faint, rofl. I know i sound stupid, so i end up walking around, to forget the pain, lol! I must learn to force myself to eat at least 1 meal a day seriously. Again today, i only ate a bowl of maggie and now i can't eat anymore.. Haiz. Im so.. changed. LOL.

So we walked to school, met Gummy and all at playground there and walk in. While walking halfway, i heard a "zut" and then i turn. Its my fana and sera! xD So i walked with them instead of Ayun and co. :P Walked with them, and then borrowed hairspray from Gummy for Fana. Then sprayed already, walk in together.

Headed to General Office, had my school fees paid. Then headed to Hall. Met my classmates and fuh, Miko hot sia!! HAHA. Then more came in. Mr Han talked, and as usual, he is as naggy as everrrrrrrr. Then Mr Nasim! :) He really made us felt better and i'm so happy to see that Art has 100% of passers, rofl.

Then around 2.50pm, results are out. I was the 4th one to take and when im walking towards, i can see Jiawei staring at me as if im going to die. LOL. Then i sat down, then took my results already, my hands was shivering and i can't even sign properly -_- Then they shooked my hands and when i went back, Emma all was staring at me, i was like "i go ITE sia!" LOL.

I cried for no reason too, hahaha! Lol, but then after crying, i sat down and stone there. Seriously can't smile or what, called my mom. Then hung up, knowing that Fadhila, Shakir, Angelo passed and was promoted to Sec 5 makes me happy for them ;) Tina was promoted too, happy for her! After taking result, i left the hall with Gummy as i really no mood to stay inside the hall.

So went to Foyer, and then told Gummy everything. I felt fucking better, lol. Then Gummy left and i went to look for Ayun. Then left school with him and his friends. Then we went to 139 while his friends left. Then Ayun head home and i stayed there. Like one crazy girl, then i went to Petir.

Went to 170 and reach there, got this one fat girl stare at me as tho i ate her mom, i got fucking fed up and i stared back. Then met Gummy and his sister and Cammie and one more girl. Headed to buy drink and then went to Gummy's sister's boyfriend's house. Then stayed there, stress sia!

Stayed till 6pm and i went home. Reach home, bath, online. Quite a number of people asked how was my result. I am so upset with myself man, omg. x.x"

Ayun's leaving tomorrow instead of today. I feel like typing out everything, but then forget it, i'll leave it to my private blog. :) Ayun, takecare at Hongkong okay!

Seeing everyone's faces today made me smiled, i missed so many people and it was a great feeling of seeing everyone. After taking result, i see some with smiles on their face, some with no emotions, some got so excited and kept laughing. Congrats to Izzuan and Kamilah for being the top students of 2009 ;)

Looking at the brighter side, im out of CDSS and im free! ITE life would be much "free" compared to Sec life i suppose? I can't wait and at the same time afraid too. But this is part and parcel of life i reckon. Haiz.

Im feeling so sad for no reason, i got so no mood for no reason seriously. My heart broke since 9 days ago and now, its broken into 4 pieces and not 2 pieces anymore. I need a hug, badly.

Tonight im going to cry, and scare Fadhila. I want to see you tomorrow morning, badly. Im leaving on 31st december, see this again, i'm leaving on 31st, please come back before i leaves.

Goodbye, my heart is broken into 4 pieces, omgz. :(

B.O.R.E.D

2009-12-17T19:34:00.002+08:00

Bold if its true ;)

I’m loud.
I’m obnoxious.
I’m sarcastic.
I’m cocky.
I cry easily.
I have a bad temper.
For the most part, I don’t like people.
I’m easy to get along with.
I like to fight.
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked.
I’ve smoked weed.
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.

My Appearance
I’m shorter than 5’5.
I wear makeup
I wear a piece of jewelery at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I’ve had braces.
I have braces.
I change my hair color often.
I straighten my hair often.
My ears are pierced.
I have small feet.

Relationships
I’m in a relationship now.
I’m single.
I’m crushin’.
I’ve missed an ex before.
I’m always scared of being hurt.
An ex has physically abused me at least once.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.
I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships
I have a best friend. )
I have at least ten friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend.
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences
I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been on a train.
I’ve left the state/province.
Someone close to me has died.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve gone bungee jumping.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve won an award.
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music
I listen to country.
I listen to pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I listen to screamo.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I'm sick of it.
I hate the radio.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Television
I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
I watch soap operas daily.
I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
I’ve seen and like The OC.
I’ve seen and like One Tree Hill.
I’ve seen and like America’s Next Top Model.
I’ve seen and like Popular.
I’ve seen and like House.
I’ve seen and like 24.
I’ve seen and like CSI.
I’ve seen and like Everwood.

Family Life
I get along with both of my parents.
My biological parents are still together.
I have at least one brother.
I have at least one sister.
I have at least one step brother/sister.
I have at least one half brother/sister.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I’ve ran away from my home.
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve made my parents cry.
I’ve lied to my parents.
I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.
I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded.

Hair
I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black.
I’ve had red.
I’ve been light brown.
I’ve been medium brown. (natural dok)
I’ve been brown.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve had purple/pink.
I’ve been blue/green.
I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
I've used conditioner.
I’ve used silk therapy.
I’ve used hot oil treatments.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair.
I’ve ironed my hair.
I’ve braided my hair.
I’ve had/want dreadlocks.

School
I’ve thrown something at a teacher.
I’ve yelled at a teacher.
I’ve been suspended.
I’ve had an in-school suspension. (half day)
I’ve been sent to the principal’s office.
I’ve walked out of class.
I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
I’ve failed a test.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
I’ve failed Art.
I’ve failed P.E.
I’ve failed Math.
I’ve failed Science.
I’ve failed another class.
A teacher has called my parents.
I’ve been caught skipping.
I’ve been on the honor roll.
I’ve been on effort honor roll

OMG IM SUCH A FUCK UP KID. LOL.

I miss you.

2009-12-17T18:59:00.003+08:00

Okay hello! Im here to blog again, 1 more minute to 7pm. :P Okay, im kinda excited for tomorrow, cause im taking my result and fucccccck, i doubt i can sleep tonight unless i am really sleepy, zzz.

Hmm, i'm heading school tomorrow with Ayun most probably ^^ So i shall meet Emma, Sera & Fana in school then! [: I can't wait to see them again, especially Sera Sist!! I miss hugging her, meh boo boo! Shall talk about today then, :)

Gummy called me and then i met Gummy, Cammie & Aqilah outside ma house, Gummy had his hair cutted by Aqilah. Then after that headed to Bangkit then to Pasar Malam again! Bought pizzas! :D Then we went to idk what block and lepak.

We had fun, took 1 picture and my face look so fake -.- And i love Aqilah's hair to the max, omg. Im so jealous x.x" Haha! Then we left while Aqilah went to meet her friends. And today, i got attacked by 2 crazy people, and they are Gummy and Cammie. They are very scary okay, lol. But nevermind, no joke no fun, no fuck no son!! :D

I vomitted just now and Cammie was like "oi oi, eh you ok?" Hahaha, damn cute lah she! Haha, i got no idea what i vomit too, wasn't feeling well either, but i still had fun afterall! :)

Gummy, i want bubblegum, original flavour ah brother!!! You are the bessssssst if you got the bubblgum with you, mehahahahah! :P

Im very happy with my tumblarity, it's 2,031 now. And im 27th place in singapore!! Haha, proud :D Hahahaa, k la, i so bitchy man, wtf. _1_ me. Hahahah, Cammie's online!!

Okay, im done with ma post~ But before saying bye, i'd like to say something :)

Sera sist, i promise you, tomorrow i won't cry okay, i will laugh till you ask me to shut up. Hope we will be taking the same course and also going to the same ITE. I don't want you to leave me you know baby, i love you alot. Lol, i sound so lesbian, im joking about the "baby" hahaha. But still sist, you know me, we almost got the same interest and i've yet make you to .... Haha you know rightttt.... HAHAHA.

I can't waitttt!!! WOOHOOOOOOO~

Have halloween on Christmas?

2009-12-17T12:14:00.002+08:00

Hi readers, im not really in a good mood, for these 4 days or rather 5, i'll be very grumpy as my fucking mens is here and my nose hurts cause got pimple T.T Last night was a horrible night, but then it ended in a nice way.

I first went to sleep at 12am, then i woke up again at 1.30am as i recieved a text from Ayun saying goodnight :) Then after replying him, i can't sleep till 4am. I feel so damn uncomfortable, and very sick too. :(

So i texted up Nelson (very random lor me.) Then asked him how was he cause the last time we chatted was months ago, lol! So yup, he sound kinda old and he claim that he is matured. Oh my tian, haha!! Then i end up texting with his Girlfriend, Fiona. She's nice! ^.^

Luckily she didn't got offended that i texted Nelson, i was really bored and Nelson just came up on my mind randomly. So yup, hope they will last long then! ^^V This is what i laughed at when im texting with him.

Me : O.o Last long okay!
Nelson : Will de la
Me : Wah, ji confident yi xia.
Nelson : Haha lols

Haha, but i buey tahan the way he types, he mcm malas nk layan me, but then he always type like this de, so i don't mind ;) Im on Msn with Lingsheng right now, he always never fail to make me laugh by being sacarstic to me. Lol!

Im very bored now, brother just cooked noodle for me. :D Most probably meeting Gummy & Cammie later on! :) Yay!

Today is the 9th day, i've made it through, but i wonder, when will this end...? :(
Tomorrow is the day, results. Omg much, i can't wait. Ayun's leaving tomorrow.. :(

18 don't come please, i need a hug now, badly, terribvery. :'(

I got pimple

2009-12-16T22:06:00.002+08:00

Im very sad. My daily friend came today. I got pimple in my right nose. My left leg hurts like siao. Bestfriend die die also don't want to online tonight cause of laziness. (Confirm he read this, hahahaha!!!) Today i stayed at home for the whole day. After tonight, it will be just 24 hours more to go to 18th december. :S And today i never lepak with Brother and Sister. :( I miss them, i kinda got use to lepak-ing with them, haha.

Im on Msn with Gummy bro now, and we are talking about the time when i farted infront of him, Ayun & Iskandar. Sia la, i hate the moment sia, Ayun was beside me and suddenly my fart came out, and nasib no smell, if not, waaaahpiang. Haha. I remember Ayun's face, he was like :O and then he stare at me. And what i did was laugh and laugh. Hahaha!

I miss those days, now change already. x.x" Okay back to topic, i've changed my blogsongs and the skin. And im currently listening to I Miss You - Blink 182.

Just now Fadhila ajak me to Chalet at Pasir Ris. But i rejected her, cause im not feeling well plus i don't feel good. Haha, time flies and i got more drifted from them just because of 1 incident. I won't bear grudges, its already over and whatsmore, its not even my fault. But can i say that you ruined my happy relationship? If it wasn't ruined, i won't be so upset now. <:

But i do hate you, and i won't show it out. I won't take revenge, i'll let karma do the talking. I'll remember the date, 1st november 2009. Great start of November, You said. Im afraid, you've forgotten about it. Check your archives baby. ;)

It was ruined, and i swear, i regretted. If it not ruined, i won't go through all these unhappiness. But if it really didn't got ruined, i won't be able to know Gummy, Ilham, Iskandar, Cammie & Ayun better. I won't be able to see your true colours darling.. How nice can you be? :]

Time now is 10.20pm, i miss him, terribly. Stop asking whether am i attached or single, i won't fucking answer that, remember this.

Yay, 2 more days to go. But boo, Ayun's going Hongkong. :( Im going to miss him more, even more than terribly, maybe terribly + very = terribvery! :( Hahahahaha! Nonsense!!!

K la, terribvery okay? I still love you alot, k bye!

ego diligo vos

2009-12-16T11:31:00.002+08:00

Hiiiiiii. Im here for a proper post! Haha, okay before i starts....

I'd like to wish Cheryl a happy sixteenth birthday! :D Sorry to paitao you and Yingying, Vivien & Tina. Seriously, i feel weird when i'm with you all, but nevertheless, happy sixteenth! :) Lovez.

Okay, shall talk about yesterday, it was a horrible starting, but then afterall i had fun! First i went to 215. My mom wanted me to go UOB but then i went to OCBC, that's why i want to deposit the money, but i failed. I tried for 6 times and fuck, i still can't get it. And the police inside was staring at me, then i was like "wahpiang, why cannot?!" Then i fed up, called mom, then i head to Novena.

Reach Novena, went to Control Station and waited for Fadhila. Then she called me, telling me that she will be late for 30 minutes, so i went to KFC and wait for her alone. Very pathetic i tell you, ha ha. Then i waited for 1 hour 30 minute, which is from 1.30pm - 3.30pm. Omg, i fucking fed up sial, cause i don't like to wait for people, hahahah! :X Then till 3.30, finally she came!!

Hug her and we both laughed! Haha, (as usual la.) Then she told me why she late and we end up cursing the bus driver, hahah! Then we train back to Cck. While going back, she told me alot of stuffs, and then i update her about my life etc etc. Then we saw hot guys O_O HAHA. Then we went to Bpp with her luggage -_- Then went to UOB. Then we walked home.

Reach home, put down our stuffs, then we off to lepak around my block. Then we headed to Pasar Malam and Gummy called me. This is our conversation.

Me : Hello Gummy?
Gummy : Oi, you where one?!
Me : Your head la Gummy. *laugh*
Gummy : Haha, eh sis you at where?
Me : Bangkit, pasar malam with Fadhila.
Gummy : EH EH! GOT SELL SHIRT? UNDERWEAR?
Me : Shirt got, underwear have, but confirm don't have your size. ( Cause all kid's)
Gummy : Bastard sia you, fuck la.
Me : HAHA, kidding la~
Gummy : Got takoyaki?!
Me : Yup, got! You want? I buy for you. What flavour you want?
Gummy : Pork, got?
Me : You, fuck you la!
*got one uncle stare at me when i say "fuck you" and fadhila laughed so loudly. Uncle's face maintain*
Gummy : Kkk, you choose k. I reach i call you again.

Haha, can imagine the scene?! HAHAHA!! Then we buy already, went to 124. Rained fucking heavily and one cat jumped on the chair that im sitting and i screamed. Lol! Then Gummy & Cammie came, slacked for awhile, then headed to Bangkit. Bought cupcorn and dinner. Then we went home after that ;)

Reach home, bath, off to Bangkit again with Fadhila to get red beans. Then reach home, packed her stuffs, then we slept at around 1+

This morning, Alson woke me up, urgh! -_- He was otp with Fadhila, and he asked Fadhila to put the phone on my ear and Alson went "HELLOO EMILY!!!!" I chuatio and wake up, fuck man! Haha, then i can't remember his voice and i said "Who you sia?" Then he say "Alson la, walao, forget me." Then i say "No la.. Cause so long never contact mah.." Haha, then he hung up already.

Fadhila went out and headed to Chinese Garden for swimming with the usuals. She ajak me, but then i refuse to go. Don't ask why, haha. So i assume that she met Michael? Yup. So now, im at home, she will be coming back later on to take her Camping bag.

Texted with Ayun just now! :) :) Hehe, then now no longer texting already cause he's working. So yup, eh sia la, 2 more days?! And last night farid send me this :

Farid : News just reported that this friday, 2.30pm results will be out. Please spread it around omg much.
*i laughed when i saw "omg much"*
*Spreads to Gummy etc*
Gummy : I don't want to spread la sis, save prepaid! LOL
Me : LOL!!

Haha, Gummy always make me laugh. Then Cammie is the serious one. BAHA. Im so bored, entertain meeeee?! :O

2009-12-15T20:25:00.002+08:00

Not going to do a proper post.
Fadhila's at ma house now, she's staying over!
She is staring at my dog right now.
Shall do a proper post tomorrow aye, bye!

Im not going to be online tonight i suppose? So yup, byeee! anything text me oke. :)

^.^V

2009-12-15T10:27:00.002+08:00

Okay hi, time now is 10.30am. Im going to go out of the house at about 11+ and then head to bank. And then mrt to Novena and meet this lady on top ^^ Hehe, i can't wait to see her and give her tha biggest hug! :D :D

Okay, today's plan is to fetch Fadhila. And the rest of the day.... Haven't plan yet, perhaps meeting pendek or something? I got no idea :(

Last night dad & mom came back, watched ghost movie together, and i swear, its god damn funny and can you imagine, the whole family gets laughing together or rather scared etc? Haha, its cool maaaan \m/

I met Ayun & Rashidi last night at 129 while im on my way to buy my dinner and supper for the my parents with Eugene. Was very very happy to see them! Like seriously, lmao, don't mind me. Bahaha!! Then headed home, slept around 2+.

Woke up at 9.30 as mom woke me up, i was like zzz with the fucked up hair, lol. So yup, i look like a lion, lolz.

Oh and last night, i had the most fucking terrible dream i ever had, i dreamt that i was attached with WINX CLUB!! (GUMMY, CAMMIE, KAK ILAH & YANA SHOULD KNOW WHO.) Wah nabeh, the dream sibeh fucking scary siol, but then fucking rich you know, hehe *keting keting* Bahahah, but but!! The father turns out to be Mr Teoh, super budget guy. HAHAHA LOL!

Okay back to topic, woke up, brushed teeth, mom asked me to go to 215 for her, haiya, why didn't she left me a message or something? But come to think of it, if she didn't woke me up, i think i'll still be asleep till like 12? AND THEN I WILL BE LATE. LOL. So yup, thanks mama i love you ^^ MUAAAAAACKZ.

Hehe time now is 10.41am.. Just 3 more fucking days till 18th! I can't wait, but at the same time i'm sad, nobody knows why, i got no idea that if im sad, does the opposite party feels the same way too? Haiyo, ming ku ah.......... Joke~ But seriously, im sad :(

Make me happy? :(

Two is better than 1.

2009-12-14T20:39:00.002+08:00

So today, i had my KFC meal after craving it for like 1 week? Yup, and im happy! I went to Bpp with Fana Pendek today, and she's such a bitch seriously. _1_ Haha, but still, she's the best, huahuahua~

We had our meals there, then i was having my cheesefries and we left halfway. Headed to idk what block and slacked, and this fucking sick uncle whom im fucking scared of was opposite of us, and i stared at him cause i was fucking shocked. Then he was showing the handsign to ask us to go towards him. I persuaded Fana to leave that place and guess what, she say "nevermind, im here" Wahpiang, i was not feeling safe, instead i felt much scared. Cause what if i have to be the one who should protect her?! O_O

So the uncle came towards us, and i was eating my cheesefries halfway (LOL) and then he came and smiled to me. I got so fucked up and scared and i threw my fries to him. Then we walk away, wah cheebye, fuck ah Fana, you see ah!!! Hahahaha, but it was fun la, lol! Fana nk step heroine je, hahahaha kidding dok :P

Then we slacked till about 6pm and off to buy dinner and then send Fana to the traffic light while i headed home.

Okay, now i've decided on what course to take. But im stucked betwene 3 courses, which is Retail, Business and Pastry. Its all available in Clementi ITE. Lol, so how. :O

Hmm, today im kinda of moody i got no idea why too, shall go offline at 9.15 then, time now is 8.59pm. So yup, bye~

I miss you. Make it quick.

Grandmother stories~

2009-12-14T13:38:00.003+08:00

Okay, just 4 more days to release of N level's result.
Just 4 more days while Ayun leaves Singapore for Hongkong for 5 good days.
Just 1 more day and Fad's coming over!
Today is the 6th day.
Nothing much to say, i slept at 3+ yesterday, im so pathetic for these few days, haiz. -.-

I can't wait for 18th to come, reason is because that im going to recieve my result. And im gonna see classmates again!

Im going to stay at home and clean my room. And maybe meeting Gummy & Cammie too, wanna get back the controller from Gummy, haha! And also my dickies bag too, rofl.

I miss the feeling of the warmth, rofl! Haha, im talking rubbish, damn it. Ok, i shall stop here, bye.

Oh and anyway, Aslina and I is gonna go for the same course man!! Woohoo! xD

Happy faces.

2009-12-13T22:29:00.004+08:00

Okay hello! Im here to post ;) Well, i've stayed at home for the whole day, like again. Its indeed boring, seriously. And what's killing me is that my internet wasn't connected for the whole afternoon! And it got connected at 5+, and im so happy to see it connected!! :D

So yeah, was on msn with Fadhila and we were talking about tumblr cute guys, bahaha! And brother just downloaded my favourite song of mine, Empire State Of Mind - Jay Z ft Alica Keys. Its very nice! Try to listen to it, ;) Haha, lmao~

So im suppose to head out for interview tomorrow, but dad forbided me to :( I've to stay at home and clean my room as its fucking messy (seriously) and he wants me to clean it and so as to welcome Fadhila! :) Hehe, see fadhila, i become maid sia! Lol, kidding ;)

Tomorrow is 14th, and fuck, 4 more days to result! _1_ And then 15th comes!!!! I can't wait! Had a chat with bestfriend just now, seriously, the way bestfriend elaborates the whole thing is so cute! As usual lah that bestfriend of mine, bahahah.

Currently now on msn with Cammie & Ira meimei ;) Im gonna blog about meimei now. Hehe ^^

She's the one in green (obviously) Haha, pretty kan?! Hmm, i wanna say thanks to her for always asking me whether did i had my meals, cause i am a person who likes to skip meals for no reason. Bahah! I hope she will maintain her happiness like now till eternity ;) Next year sec 3 already ah, upper sec already, aisey! Must study very hard from next year, if not end up like me, kanchiong for N level x.x"

All the best k meimei, i love you ^.^ Hehe! & stay happpy ah!!! :D

& i miss you alot. :'(

Whatever!

2009-12-13T14:16:00.002+08:00

Okay, im having a headache now and it suck alot. Fucking annoyed with those sounds coming from the voideck, as there is a funeral going on, but then very noisy :/ Hopefully it will end it today then, tahan 1 more day! :)

Today, i woke up at 11.48am. Last night, i went to sleep around 2+ and seriously, i can't sleep. I got no idea why too, after reading some texts, i finally fell asleep, i feel so pathetic, lol. -.- Mom's coming back tomorrow with dad, and tomorrow, im headed to Great World City with Fana and perhaps Farris too, for interview @ Fish &Co. <;

Can't wait, today is 13th, tomorrow is 14th. Wait, just 5 more days to release of N level's result! Oh my god, im very nervous and no longer excited. Rofl!

My dear Cammie is coming back from her camp today at Pulau Ubin, i miss msn-ing with her man, lol! And also, Gummy~ He's starting work today, all the best k brother, 12 hours dok, tahaaaaan, can lose fats!! HAHAHA, remember our deal ah! December must slim! If notttt, you owe me fishballs! :P

SOOOOO, I JUST ADDED A FORMSPRING ON MY TUMBLR!! And angmohs are starting to talk to me, how wonderful, bahahahahah!! K la, i update later alright. Ciao!

No title.

2009-12-12T20:22:00.002+08:00

okay hello again. ;) im so happy today! okay, i've to admit that i don't care about my tumblarity, but that only applys when it drops. And guess whut?! It rised up from 700+ to 965! Wah, happy to the max!

Haha okay enough of that, i sound like a bitch, lol! Hmm today, i stayed at home for the whole day, pretty boring tho. Hmm, been bitching about those who talk bad about Beyonce on Youtube.com with Fadhila, lol! And Beyonce didn't went for any operation on her body regarding her boobs, her nose or whatsoever okay?! _1_ you all la, lol!!

Hmm tomorrow is coming on my way!! Imma meet that pendek for sure, no matter what, unless she is really sick :( Haha, so yup, i hope she won't fall sick and sleep early. ^^

Currently on msn with Ira boin boin & Gummy. Gummy just brb-ed on me, and he will be back at 9.20pm. So yeah, im on tumblr posting now too. And god! My tumblarity soar-ed up to 1001 already!!!

Me so happy today, seriously. Hahaha!! Im going offline tonight early i guess? :x I got no idea uh, today is 12th, tomorrow 13th. Then 14th, then 15th!!! I can't wait for 15th to come!

15th is because of Fadhila's arrival, not other alright ;) Oh, bestfriend coming back tomorrow already!!

K bai~

:D

2009-12-12T12:32:00.001+08:00

for the first time in ma life, i woke up at 12pm, omg. If my dad were to know, he will scold me for sure. Rofl, but nevermind, he is not in singapore ^.^

Last night i watch a show and slept around 2+am. Sorry to you-know-who that i can't sleep after hanging up with you, cause i can't sleep ah, and i promise you, i wasn't thinking about it. ;)

Today im not going out, im going 2 stay at home. And i might be meeting Fana tomorrow and hang out. I can't wait to see that pendek again, hehe! ^.^

Just 1 more day and i'll be seeing that pendek.
Just 2 more days and i'll be going for an interview.
Just 4 more days and i'll be seeing fadhila that mama bohsia.
Just 6 more days and i'll be seeing everyone in school.

Caaaaaan't waaaaaaaait!!! :)

change

2009-12-10T11:50:00.003+08:00

Seriously sick of life. Headed out to meet Ayun just now and headed to Bangkit with him to get his cards. He used the wallet that i got for him and im happy. But i got no strength to even smile. Didn't want to go home after he board his bus, so i went to underblock alone. Called Cammie up. Then stayed there for 1/2 hour.

Headed home, online.

My eyes are now very tired. My shorts and shirts is gettin too big for me. Which means im losing weight. i've not eaten since yesterday. im fallin sick.

Tomorrow is the 11th. then 12th comes. 12th is a very important day for me. Miss lai is gettin married and i can't wait to see her. 12th is also my 1st monthsary with my boyfriend, but i doubt that will happen as 1st monthsary.

I wanna thanks Cammie & Gummy for all these while. You guys seen me screaming at myself, laughing alone, and most importantly, seen how i cried like one mad small girl. Im only myself when im with you two. Im always trying to be someone whom people want me to be, and end up gettin hurt for being fake.

Thanks alot, seriously. Best bro and sist \m/

I am weird, going berserk. Im going to change myself, into a person who doesn't talk much. Im so great ;) how is it? does everyone like it? i hope you do.

takecare, ciaos.

Editted.

I miss that boy who always call me kanasai.. :'(

day 1

2009-12-09T19:35:00.002+08:00

Okay 2nd post. Today fucking no mood again, it suck alot. Headed to meet Cammie downstairs. Then headed to 125, slacked there, did housework, fucking shocked by those coakcroaches, damn, its all baby coakcroaches!!! _1_ them all, and 3 girls which is me, Cammie & Gummy's sister was screaming like mad girls.

We slacked inside the house, was fun. Managed to really laugh, cause of Gummy that joker brother of mine. So i went home, charge my phone & went back. Then we headed to Bangkit but Gummy stayed at home. Then went back to 125, then went home.

Im feeling so fucked up, wondering what is fucking wrong with me?! I didn't committed any mistakes and why? Can i ask why? Can i know why? Today is day 1, yet i can't take it, what about day 2? I can't fucking take it, but i know i must. And i must.

Tomorrow, thursday, 10th. I want to hug you so badly. I want to tell you how much i missed you, can i? :'(

Life is hard

2009-12-09T11:33:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to Sayang ^.^ Finally you are turning sixteen today. I hope you'll enjoy although you are working today -_- Haha, but nevertheless, enjoy yep! Love you so so so much! Hehe, muacks! :P

Okay, i got no mood today. Last night i didn't manage to sleep till 2.30am. Again, another hard night to get through. It was seriously hard, i really got no idea what to do. I got a feeling that im going to get cheated. And cheated badly and i will end up crying. Im so scared, seriously very scared..

Today is a brand new day, i want to be strong. Sometimes, i feel like giving up but i know i won't and i can't do it. At times I have the urge to hug you so tightly till i never want to let go but im afraid of you. I want to let go, but i know my heart won't allow me to. I don't want to cry, but i end up crying myself to sleep.

If only you know what's inside my mind, things will be much easier. I don't wish to spoil anything, so i'll just keep it and bottle things up. Perhaps, this might do us good although it doesn't do any good to me. But its going to be worth it, i believe.

3 more days to 1st monthsary. 9 more days to N level's result. I hope, things will go smoothly and i'll get the best result that i'll ever get for this 2 occasion.

Sighz, life is hard but i gotta bear with it. :'(

You mind.

2009-12-08T21:31:00.001+08:00

Okay hello. I am here to post about today. Going offline early today, so anything just leave a text and i may reply as my prepaid is running low.

I haven't ate since the Macflurry i had this afternoon. Okay shall talk about today then. I had a very sweet dream last night. I slept till 10am today and i came online after washing up.

Msned, recieved a offline message from Fadhila. And i msn-ed with Sera & Emma. Lack of Fana, if not, it'll be perfect! :D Then we kept talking to each other in a sacarstic way and as usual, we went ya la ya la. Hahaha, and we planned to meet up on the 18th morning and head to school for results :S Then Sera went offline without saying, da biase lah sist. Hahah!!

So, something cropped up and i started to get somehow stupid. I broke down and fuck, i broke my promise to myself. I told myself to be strong and its a must. So i went to get ready and met Cammie. Met her and headed to 137. Then went to Bangkit then to Fajar to meet Gummy.

Met Gummy. Then both of 'em went to buy food. And i fucking showed them the most fucked up face of mine to them while they are eating their macdonald's. Sorry guys, you guys are the best. I was like so upset that i don't even want to eat. Then i recieved a call. And damn, im such a fool.

And of course, i smiled and after that, i explained to both of them about what happened exactly. So after that, we went up to level 2 and then bought stuffs. Headed home, and Gummy insisted of me bringing my dog out. And i went, and Gummy seem to like my dog, lol! Then i bought Milo back and then we started on our games ;)

Had lots of fun, and we end up playing poker cards, the game was called "Bluff" and its fun! After the card game, we blew bubbles. And godddd, it was so fun!! ^.^ Then they head home while i go home too, like duh -_-

Reach home, chatted with Esther, Emma & Victoria. Tumblr-ed, facebook-ed. Webcammed with Gummy and his brother is oh-so-cute! Hmm, k bye.

Im fucking hungry, but im not going to eat today. Tomorrow is my sayang's birthday. ^.^

Today.

2009-12-07T21:23:00.004+08:00

Okay hello!! Im here to elaborate my day alrrrrrightz. ;) I woke up at 9am, i went online after washing up, then i forgot to blog till i visited my own blog -__- And when i went to visited, it was already 11am which im supposed to meet Cammie!! Then i quickly went to bath, and then packed my stuffs. Met her at my block downstairs and headed to Teck Whye by LRT.

Met Gummy, headed to Lot1 and bought sayang's present ;) Then we mrt-ed till Tanah Merah. On the train, there is one girl staring at me and Cammie. Then want to step fierce with us with her kening and her eyes -,- Then me and Cammie was like laughing at her all the way, and yes, Gummy too, hahah! Very hilarious and she alighted at Bugis with her Bro -.- Then i played my Quadrapop again, and omg!!! I BROKE RECORD BABY!! HAHHAHAHA! :P

Then reach Tanah Merah, took shuttle bus to Sayang's chalet ^^ Then we reach already, and when i saw him i was so happy but i didn't showed out la, hehehe! :P Then we went to the beach. Played with water and damn, its nice and super fun. And stupid Gummy make me screamed cus he wanted to throw me or something, _1_ him. LOL! Jkjk :P

Then headed back to his chalet, and damn, it was super awkward. Sayang's cousin and siblings is like teasing me and i was like "........ errr, *smile*..." Then we went in and then left after taking pictures :) I did took picture with Sayang but its with him, so yeaaaaaah. :)

Then we cabbed home after that, the driver was super talkative and i can't even fucking sleep. Haiya, but he kept saying "No money, no honey" Lol and it made me think of ....... yeah, haiz.

Now, im on msn with Gummy, Cammie & Victoria Sist. And texting too. Currently, im missing Ayun like one crazy girl for no reason, and wednesday's his birthday!! ^.^ Yay!

Hmm. Can't wait for wednesday and friday, as well as saturday!! ^.^ WOOHOO! :D Okay la, bye!

unwell

2009-12-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

NOT BLOGGING, NOT FEELING WELL. URGH.
K BYE~ WILL UPDATE TOMORROW BEFORE I GOES OUT <:

Red roses.

2009-12-06T11:23:00.002+08:00

Morning people! ^.^ Im right now on msn with Fadhila and also on my Tumblr. ;) Im very active on my tumblr and as i can see, readers reading my blog is decreasing. I apologize for it, but im not going to give up on Blogger.com anyway ;) Hehe!

Hmm today is sunday, sayang is at his chalet already. Too bad i can't go tonight but tomorrow, im sorry sayang. Hope he will enjoy anyway, oh yeah, im heading to his Chalet with Gummy & Cammie as usual. Can't wait to see 'em again, lol!

Well, tonight imma rot at home for the whole day, eh no. Im headed to Bangkit later'on ;) Hmm, really very hungry right now, shall munch on my bread naow, and im going to finish up the whole loaf, hahaha jokes~

Okie, im listening to Candles - Hey Monday. Byeee! Will upload again later, (promise!)

Its been a month.

2009-12-05T13:55:00.003+08:00

Like whaaaaa, he is so fugging smoking hawt! His name is Mitch Hewer. <: My latest crush!! Hot siaaaaaaalz, urgh! Hahahahaha~

Okay, today is the 5th! 4 more days to Sayang's birthday!! ^.^ Hehe, this morning i went to meet Sayang and headed to Bangkit and do something. Then walked to the bustop and he went for work while i left home. :] Then reach home, online, tumblr-ed, msn-ed.

Meimei is attached, i hope she will stay happy with her boyfriend. Hope they will be able to last as long as possible then! ^.^

Im so bored, last night, i was thinking what happened to me on 5th November. Thinking back, i didn't cried but i was happy. And of course, it was a hard time for me, and to make it much straightforward, what i think of people around me is that they are a bunch of fuckers. When i needed them, they are not fucking there and when they needed me, im for sure to be there to make them laugh.

The seperation between me and Hazmi, between me and some friends, seriously made me much stronger and happier. Im happy with those who are around me, mainly they are Fana, Sera, Emma, Gummy, Cammie & my sweetest boyfriend, Ayun.

Sometimes, words are not good enough as compared to actions.

Sometimes, i do want to get back to you, but i think of what had happened, i abort that idea.

Sometimes, i do miss you, our memories, but its all over.

Sometimes, i look at our photographs, thinking of our laughters, those jokes we shared, make me cry and wonder why did you changed?

Sometimes, i think, i reminiscence, i learn, and its not a sad thing that we are seperated, its a good thing that we were once together. :)

There is one chinese saying, "Hao de bu qu, xin de bu lai". Which means, if you don't let go of some certain things, there's no way we can achieve something better.

Makes sense? Oh yeah, i wanna be the happy-go-lucky girl again ;) Okla, shall stop and admire my Mitchie already, wahahahoho, tooodles~

im sad today.

2009-12-04T11:35:00.002+08:00

Okay, this post is about my dog. I know im being lame, but im very sad right now. Cause im giving it away to Praba. :'( Im so sad. I didn't want to give it away, but my dad insisted to, haiz.

Okay, on 10 January 2004, i was still a primary 5 kid then, and when i was on my way home, i saw this dog being tied up with strings that people use it to tie bananas, attached to a bench. I was with my brother and my maid then. And, i stared at it for 1/2 hour and i was wondering should i bring it home. And for your info, i was fucking scared of dogs, no matter its big or small in size, to me they are very fierce.

But even im scared, i still want it to be staying with us and i insisted in walking home from our school. My school was located around Senja while im staying at Segar. Which is 3 train station away. So if i were to walk, it will take 45 minutes. My brother was lazy and he was mad at me for forcing him to bring this poor dog home. So in the end, we walked home with this lil dog.

We named it Milo. And we decided on 10 January to be his birthday. For the 1st 2 weeks, i didn't dared to go near it, and surprisingly, Milo knows that im afraid of it so it didn't came near me, indeed clever. :) And slowly, i am not scared of it after 1 month later.

And every 10 January, we'll buy birthday cake for Milo. And we'll sing birthday songs for it. And it know that its the birthday of it's, and it was barking and running around us, how adorable can it be? (:

There was one time when it ran out of the house, and we were looking for it like mad kids, shouting for its name, like what i said earlier on, mad kids. Then guess what? It stayed inside the lift and then somehow the lift stopped at 11th floor, which is our house is. It ran out, and stayted outside our house, and kept barking. And when we saw Milo, everyone was laughing at it and my dad scolded it for running away, haha.

Milo brought us laughters, and yes, i love it alot, alot. When i was editting this picture for Praba, i noticed that my eyes are turing watery. The thoughts of Milo bitting my lipgloss, eating up my cake when im not looking just went away.

I have to give it away as my grandma hates Milo. And i seriously hate her for this, i got no choice but to give it away. But damn, im not prepared. I hope Praba will take good care of Milo, and when Praba don't want Milo anymore, i want it back, understand Praba?!!

Its a mix breed, Jack Russel + Terrier. Male, Milo. Its birthday is on 10 January 2004. It must not be left alone at night sleeping at the living room area, it will cry. This dog is super pampered by us cause it sleeps in the masterbed room with air-con on. And it loves Durian and Century Eggs.

:'( im starting to cry, wtfffffffffff. :'( Argh!

no more days to waste

2009-12-03T15:33:00.003+08:00

Okay hello people! Im back to post, but short post for today, shall elaborate everything in point form then, im lazy to type in paragraphs, hahah :x

Went to mom's shop today and im still at my mom's shop.
Woke up at 8.40am today, very tired but fun. lololmao!
Had Mee-siam with dad and mom.
I ate 4 eggs today, 2 cooked, 2 half-boiled.
Im currently chatting with Fadhila.
I might be heading town with Victoria sist tomorrow. ^^V

Hmm, im back to playing Cafe World. This post is kinda boring, skip it if you want then, lol. Im sad that takashimaya haven't called me up. Meh :(

Okay la, bye!

i love you.

2009-12-01T20:15:00.002+08:00

Okay, im here to blog again! Going out at 8.45pm, so i gotta rush up and head out. :) Hmm. Today was a boring day, but i had a great start of the day anyway! ^.^ This is how it goes..

Woke up at 9am, called Sayang! Then i went back to sleep till sayang called me at 10am. Bath, went to his house. Then took his psp, and left. Went to Pending station together and waited for 700 with him. Then his bus came, and i went back while he left for work. :B

Reach home, asked brother to buy Macdonald's for me, and then Zelda and her brother came over, then as usual, im still using my laptop. Lol, then i went out around 3+. Went down to look for Gummy, Cammie, Kak iLah & Diyanah. Lepak till 5pm (?) and Kak iLah & Diyanah went back while me, Cammie & Gummy went to Cammie's block. Drank strawberry milk with Gummy and we talked for awhile. Then headed to Bangkit.

Then we walked around, i bought dinner and we went home after that. It was fun today, while we lepak we kept laughing and Gummy as usual, always shows the funny faces, rofl!

So yeah, im currently chatting on Msn with Fana & i brb-ed from Victoria sist. <: Okay, time now is 8.30pm, can tumblr for awhile and then head to Teck Whye! :P

Anyway... I miss my boyfriend, today he look so cute! Hahah, okay whateverrrrrr~ Bye!

Crank crank~

2009-11-30T11:24:00.003+08:00

Firstly, i just met my boyfriend just now and he left for work already.
Secondly, i'm much active on my Tumblr compared to Blogger, but that doesn't mean i will abort my Blogger. I will still update, but readers, to be frank, my Tumblr is much better, lmao -_-
Thirdly, i super love my boyfriend and tomorrow is the 1st, im meeting Dion. Like finally baby!! :D
Lastly, i'm very bored naow, shall do a quiz since its been quite sometime since i did one. <: Hehe, here i go! :D

Q : What's your name?

E : Emily.

Q : How many siblings you have?

E : 2, excluding me. ^.^

Q : Attached/Single?

E : Attached. :D

Q : What's your hobby?

E : Posting on Tumblr & adoring my boyfriend. <:

Q : Who's your bestfriend?

E : Fana Haron, Khamirul & Md Hazmi (:

Q : Who was your last ex?

E : Hazmi.

Q : Have you had a cousin/relative who loves and care bout you very much?

E : Zelda Yeeru. (See, i tiongxim hor siaoeh. lolololol!!)

Q : Who do you last talk to?

E : Realife = Brother. Msn = Apon.

Q : Who are you talking to now?

E : Nobody.

Q : When is your last time you ever had a kiss?

E : Just now :P

Q : Do you love someone right now?

E : Yes, of course!

Q: If you ever had a chance to turn back time, what will you do?

E : Grow much thinner, lolmaoz -.-

Q : What type of guy are you into?

E : Malays, Cute, Unique *smiles* And save the best for me. :)

Q : How many child do you want in the future?

E : 2. Either twins or boy & girl.

Q : What would you name them?

E : Norah/Isabelle for Girl. *i can't think any for boys.*

Q : What's your ambition?

E : To be a immigration officer, lolololmao.

Q : Who do you love most in your life now?

E : Md Hairul. :D

Q : Have you ever had a crush in school?

E : Haha yes. Duh -.-

Q : If yes, who are they? If no, skip.

E : Abdul Shakir for 2 years, it was a major crush back then. (the most memorable crush) Aidil, during Sec 2 camp which is only for 3 days 2 night. Khamirul Bff, during Secondary 3. Hazmi, during Secondary 4.

Q : What's your favourite brand?

E : I love Burberry alot and i yearn to have 1 of their item. *sad*

Q : Are you fat?

E : Yes, my tummy and my face. _1_

Q : Where do you usually go on the saturday nights?

E : Im a noobshit, i stays at home, ftw.

Q : Among your cousins, who's the pretty one?

E : Paternal side, Zelda Yeeru (she change hell lot. lol!) As for Maternal side, Nicole Decruz. :)

Q : Do you know what you want now?

E : Yes, a call from Takashimaya!!!!!!!

Q : Where are you going today?

E : No where. :)

Q : Where are you now?

E : Living room x)

Q : Are you bored?

E : Not really, cause im doing this, duh!

Q : Currently listening to?

E : Tic Tok - Kesha.

Q : Do you have pets?

E : Yes, a mix breed of Jack Russell and Terrier, its name is Milo! ^.^

Q : What's your last nightmare?

E : Sayang ignored me. :(

Q : Are you done with it now?

E : Yes, darling! :)

Something about you is so...

2009-11-29T18:36:00.004+08:00

Okay, around 3pm i went to meet my boyfriend. Then Gummy came and we went to buy food. While they are talking, i was playing my game from my phone, Quadrapop. It was addicting. And because of the game, i fell asleep at 2am and it caused me to be yawning nonstop today, how stupid. But who cares? Fuck it. _1_

Gummy left and me and sayang talked about something. It was a serious topic and i felt alive. I mean, we were thinking about the same thing afterall. And i can feel my heart which is somehow in pain. Its the fact that not many relationships can be long lasting and to be frank, i don't dare, i don't want, i must not think far for our relationship. I'll just take what it gives and i appreciates you, and your everything. :')

We headed to Bangkit, i was quiet the whole journey, kinda stupid. But just listening to sayang talking is enough cause he always make me smile. Basically, he always make me happy, lol.

So headed home after the usual goodbye kiss.

Headed home, online. From today onwards, im going to force myself to slim down, and its a yes that i must slim before January.

Okay im done with my post, bye.

Birthday!

2009-11-29T11:21:00.003+08:00

Okie dokie, today is my dearest Babymantha's sweet sixteen! ^.^ This post is dedicated to her and hope she will read it, cause i reckon that there'll be loads of dedications for her to read, haha! Hmm let's get to point, happy birthday sist, hope you will be happy with everything you have in your life. And also, good lucks in your N's result, hehe! :D I love you sist, mwarkz. :D

Okay, im updating my tumblr now, okie byeee. Oh and anyway, should i cut this hairstyle? :)

I find this hairstyle really hot, lol. But i love my long hair.... Argh, whatever -__- Hair can grow again, hahahahahaha! :D SHOULD I????????!!

2009-11-28T18:58:00.002+08:00

Okay hello, first thing first, i've been neglecting my blogger and im much into Tumblr. Haha, and basically, i've been increasing my tumblarity, in 2 hours, my tumblarity soared up from 80 to 174!!! ISNT THAT LIKE W.O.W?! Haha, and i'm the #403 tumblrist in sinapore!! ^.^ Hehe.

Okay, i didn't met Sayang this morning as he wasn't at home. So yeap, i slept till 10.30 and my dog came in and messed with my stuffs, im very angry with it, and it is like keep on looking at me, wanting me to pamper him like how i always did, but meh, im angry with it today, just for today. ^^V Anyway, did i told you people that my dog bite the lipgloss that Fana bought for me?!! Gosh i was so upset and very angry with my dog, lolololmaoz.

I stayed at home for the whole day, and i swear it was god damn boring. Was texting with sayang and i got so happy to recieve his text message! :D I misssssss him already! ):

Was on msn with Victoria sist for the whole afternoon, <: Hehe, imma meet her up on the 5th! Yeayyyyy, can't wait, seriously xD Oh okay, tomorrow is the 29th!! Is Babymantha's sister's birthday!! Gonna post up a lil post for her tomorrow. :) And soon, 1st December will be here, and im gonna meet up Dion, probably hitting the town again, and then the 5th, meeting Victoria Sist for pedicure!!! And 9th, sayang's birthday!! :D :D :D HAHA.

Most probably im working during the month of December, hopefully it won't crash with the first week of December, x.x" If it does, IM GONNA BE OH-SO-SAAAAD. ): But fyi, im kinda excited for work!! ^.^ (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Tomorrow's sunday, most probably meeting sayang! ^.^ Yay, okay i need to list out those names who i want to meet badly, super super super super extremely badly!!!

They are : Fana, Sera, Emma, Victoria Sist, Esther Sist, Dion. Okay?!!! GO!

BYE! Follow me on Tumblr!! http://www.uglytruths.tumblr.com :D Love you all, bye!!

Courage.

2009-11-27T22:02:00.002+08:00

Okay, im here to post again. Today i stayed at home for the whole day and it was boring. Had Mac just now, delicious :)

I've been spamming my tumblr since last night and my tumblarity stopped at 80. T_T Sad, lol. Hope i'll get more followers tomorrow then! ^.^

Headed to Teckwhye just now by 190. Then went back by 190 and 963. Was a waste of trip, fvcking wasted my time. _1_

Reach home, again spamming my Tumblr with pictures and texts. Sayang is having his off days tomorrow as well as Sunday! And when he told me this i was smiling to myself, heheh. Yay, can meet him tomorrow already, although im meeting him everyday, lolololmao. -.-

I feel abit strange and unhappy now, seriously, i need to cast that thought aside as it over already. Looking at one of my photograph taken with someone-who-use-to-be-very-important to me, i thought, people change, but pictures doesn't..

Argh, i think im going to sleep early tonight, im turning in at 10.45pm after texting sayang.

K chowz.

Ignoring all the nonsense

2009-11-27T12:42:00.002+08:00

Okay hello, basically, i've just finished spamming my tumblr with David Desrosiers's picture, haha, im very active on Tumblr fyi. :) My tumblarity has reached 80 and i want it to be increasing.

Hmm i went to meet Sayang just now and we spend time together till 11+. He send me home and he left for work, and today he is knocking off early, yay!

Im currently on msn with Wenhui Baobei (: I miss her like one szb can, lol.

Hmm, im hungry, k la bye!

School!

2009-11-26T20:57:00.004+08:00

Okay hello, im here to post. Shall talk about my day today yeap ^^

I woke up at 9am, called sayang. Then headed to bath. Then went downstairs to meet Sayang and we left at 11+. Headed to Pending, then he took 700 to work while i took 171 to Assumption Bustop. Met Vincent there ;)

Then Shane and co came, we walked up the hill and it was god damn hot and tiring, wtfffff. Then reach school, headed to Canteen. Then walk to outside Science lab, met Miss Lin. Then walk around. Took pictures of those changes in school, its like W.O.W okay. Lol.

Then met Mr Raj!!! ^^ As usual, we kept laughing and yessssss, im so happy to see him!! Hehe, then we met Mr Gary too!! We chatted for a while and then me and Yimling went to the canteen.

Then we left school and headed to my house. Then Yimling stayed till about 7+ and then i headed to Teck Whye while she left home. I had a great day with her anyway ;)

I miss sayang alot, and im going to update his blog after updating mine :) Hmm, im currently updating my Tumblr as well as blogging at the same time. And today i had 3 new followers!! Yipeeeee, so happy yknowwwwwwwwww. :B

And i had my tagbox back, kids coming back again i think, we shall see ;) Please lah, if you were to be so daring, why didn't you confronted me after seeing me in school? Ah hai, -.-

2009-11-25T19:01:00.003+08:00

Okay, i finally had my blogskin editted nicely and thanks Victoria sist to help me design it. Hehe and i love it alot. Well after this post, imma shut my laptop down and then go and sleep. Cause i've been using the laptop since 12pm i think? :/ So yeah, my eyes are tired x.x"

Now im on MSN with Cammie & Yimling. Tomorrow is our school's Open House. Aisey man, i wanna go!! Probably going back with Yimling, Emmeline & Shane? :) Hmm, gonna ask Fana along, but i was wondering will she want to come along? :/

Okay, im done, byee!!!

Oh and anyway, dion's coming to singapore today!!! YAY, IMMA SEE HER ON 1ST! YAY! :D

Priority

2009-11-25T13:42:00.002+08:00

Okay hello, im here to blog. Time check now is 1.43pm. Shall talk about my morning then. Woke up at 9.30am, texted Sayang, went back to sleep. Woke up again at 10am, then texted Sayang and he called. Bath, watch tv. Went down to look for him. :D

Met him, and we stayed till 11.15am, as he is late for work already. Got home, texted with him, online, update my Tumblr. And now im blogging while chatting with Lingsheng. :) Im feeling very hungry, feel like going to lepak today, maybe later on with Cammie. <:

Today is a boring day, meh. D: Takashimaya's staffs haven't call me, *sad* Okla, i hope i get that job tho, if not im going to rot already.

Okla, now on msn with Shiping & Carmen sist. :) Bye!

Unreasonable.

2009-11-24T20:01:00.002+08:00

For this 2 days, you have been shouting at me on the phone, at home or whenever you sees me. Like hello?! I didn't did anything wrong yet you are shouting on the phone every now and then when you are talking to me. I am your daughter, not your slave or whatever. Do you even notice that you have been shouting, scolding me every now and then? Forget it if you don't, cause i doubt i ever exist in your eyes -.-

Urgh, forget about the 1st paragraph, im so furious about it. Okay shall talk about today. Waited for bus 700 and then alighted after 20 minutes later. Walked to Taka straight, headed to level 10 for interview. Filled up the form, she looked at my hair, everything and asked when can i start working. So she briefed me about the attire, my hair. She asked me to get a pair of black shoewear. And i told her to let me start work a.s.a.p. Lol!

So after that, headed to Ck Tangs, met up Ayun & his friend. Then after that left after talking awhile and his watch is with me right now. Might be meeting him later'on to pass it back to him. So after that, i took 190 back and met Cammie, headed to Bpp for lunch as i was hungry. :/

Had rice, then we walked around, then met Diyanah, so i left 'em and i went home with dinner packed. Reach home, online bathe. Here i am posting, time check now is 8.08pm.

I got no mood for anything right now, i am feeling really very fvcked up. K bye.

pull my trigger

2009-11-24T12:44:00.002+08:00

I miss Emma, Sera. This 2 idiot, when am i going to see you huhhhhhh. Oh yeah, gonna help Emma to download songs, yay i got something to do now. k im lame.

today's plan is to go to town again. then off to have lunch with sayang. Im going to reach home as early as 6pm today, i hope. Hahhaha, im seriously worn out, but then i need a job badly, so i will still go today.

Time now is 12.50pm. Gonna download songs for Emma and head out after that. Solo today, lonely much, lolololz.

k la bye!

kiss and hugs

2009-11-23T20:26:00.002+08:00

Okay hello! Second post, lol! Im here to elaborate my day today, it was a looooooooong day but yet fun! xD Okay, i woke up at 9.10am and texted Sayang. Then took my own sweet time to wake up fully and then bath, then i went to meet Sayang and off to Shehnaz's house for Drama meeting. And guess what?! The current president is not there! Which means he/she CMI!

So we end up ordering pizzas and watched Jennifer's Body & Paranormal Activity. It was gr8t, haha. And i think Megan is hot, but gay, lolz. :P Then off to Phoenix and met Fana Darling! Then we took 190 and alighted at Far East. Had KFC again, and we sat at the same spot again, lol.

Then we went off to Far East and then we made our way to Paragon. Then left Paragon and left for Cathay. Then walk back to Paragon, look for Sayang! Then after that headed to Taka and went to look for Sayang's mom and i was really very shy, and when i saw her, i smiled and i walkaway, lmao!

Then i plunged up my confidence and went to talk to her, she is really cool you know, haha! :) Then i asked her for infomations and then tomorrow's interview will be a sucess! ^^ Weeee, im so happy! Then we went to Bustop while Sayang is on the phone with me. :)

I told him everything and im kinda excited lah, hahahaha, lol! Then me and Fana took 190 back. And there's this 1 indian guy who is fucking hot! (K sayang, takmo jealous okay, i love you still.) Then Fana stood beside him and then i asked her to stand with me and she blamed me for pulling her away, lol. And the most funniest thing she said was..........

i didn't regretted standing beside him and this sentence made me laugh like one mad idiot, cause she sound so..... hmmm.... so.... girlish. LMAO! Hahahah! My bestfriend always, hehe!

So i got home, bath, online, and now im on msn with Victoria sist. Going to eat my hor fun now, and my Sayang is on the phone with me! XD

k bye!

Spammers suck.

2009-11-23T19:04:00.004+08:00

I am fully amazed with all those tags you spammers had given me, a big thank you for making my day, well what i thought when i saw those tags was "semagat". It means hardworking for your info, <: Well, calling me a minah-lian? Okay, do i hang out with Matreps? Do i hang out with Ahlians and Ahbengs? Please, don't call me that, cause i am not, lol. _1_ for you okie.

EmilyMajorLoser? Wah that name very nice leh, thanks ah. Hahaha, but it suits your mother more, -.- Hmm first thing is i don't find myself a loser. Cause if i were to really want to spam a person, i will use my own name with my link down. And basically, i don't spam, i tag. Cause i find those people who spams are so no life-ers. (Does that word exist? Okay whatever, lol!)

Fingerfuck? Oh please, i just turn 16 yknow, i don't know all this stuffs, do you know? Post a video on how to do it and post it on Youtube.com lah, bodoh sundal! Haiyeeeeer!

Plastic surgery? Eh very expensive leh, plus my boyfriend likes me this way, don't believe ask him uh? Hahaha, i think you guys should, cause in case we were to find out who are you people are, better go and get a big ultra mole or something, hahahahahahahaha. Oh, im not trying to say how dai sai am i, im just suggesting yknow, don't call me Minah-lian leh, very hurting okay T.T

I think you people ain't dogs. You people are worst than animals, sorry to those who i offended. Seriously, i think dogs is better. I have a dog myself and i think you people are worst than dogs. Hmm.. Maybe beast? Okay i don't know lah, but all i know is, dogs are better you guys, so stop calling them dogs, friends ;)

My friends have seen my ugly side so im not afraid anyway. I deleted cause i don't want people to see that i'm so pop yknow, bahahahahaha! And ugly side of your/you people's is indeed wonderful and ugly enough, andddddddddd its a pity or i'd say lucky that you didn't put down your name, if not.. wah, cannot imagine sia!

Anyway, you guys hor make my tagbox very kecoh sia, fuhlemak pukimaaaaaaak. (Okay, what kind of language is that, lol) And please, don't insult my friends okay. And i didn't asked my Sister for help, she merely viewed my blog and left a note for you guys, isn't she sweet? :)

Now, my tagbox is gone, anything not happy call/text/msn me. Don't act one bloody fu.ck on the net okay, it won't do you good, cause you people sound very retarded cause you people are talking to yourself and you guys sound stupid. LOL.

And i thought you said you were older than me? Then why humji? Please lah hor, if you really bueykeyan with me, talk lah, don't tag. Older than me somemore, xiasuey siaaaa pukimak. Nabeh pubor, don't act big fuck on the net lah okay? How childish can you be?

And once again, im not affected with those spammings, it makes my day and sadly to say, i'm going on very strong with my boyfriend and we are not affected. In fact, you people always make us laugh yknow, hahaha! Okay whatever it is, if you all not happy with me, text/call/msn me, i will be waiting okay, don't settle thru net, cause you people are the losers, not me.

SO once again, BYE LOSERS! :)

I love Sayang!

2009-11-22T20:06:00.005+08:00

Okay, finally free to post after having chatting with 6 person. Currently only chatting with Sayang as i went appearing offline. Sorry guys, cause i am kinda fickle minded, and i wanted to go offline but then i want to chat with Sayang at the same time, sooooo yeaaaaaaah, hahahaha.

Okay, today i went to meet Sayang! xD And today is his off day, and im very happy! Haha, cause i can spend time with him! Although i meet him everyday, lol! Okay, im being so hua-chi now, lmao. Slacked with him then Gummy came and look for us. Followed by Fana! Then we slacked and Fana left home and i left home for something.

Then met Sayang & Gummy at Sayang's house. See Gummy play game make me sleepy, lol! Haha, what i meant was im sleepy and bored. LOL. So i fall asleep, and i doubt Gummy and Sayang know that :/ Haha so yeah, after that we went to Block 132 (?) and slacked, after that went to buy dinner and then sayang walk me home. :)

Then reach home, eat, online. Now im going out to Bangkit and im bugging sayang to teman me, bahahaha! :P Okay la, bye!

Anyway, i love md hairul very much! xD

2009-11-22T10:47:00.003+08:00

LOL. Okay, i can't stop laughing when is saw those quarrellings on the tagbox. Lol, let's see who's the casts alright, anyway i'd like to know who directed this show, cause its somehow real but too bad, i was with my boyfriend last night <: Hahaha, losers! :P This are the casts, the names is kinda unique, \m/

Passer
Ayun
mr lao ren
>
passerbyyyy
Emily Loser
EmilySuck! :)
Anonymous

Well, i think the director suck in choosing those names, try out something new. Hmm maybe Dick? Tom? Harry? Sally? Maggie? Hahaha, all suits you all (y)

Well, Victoria sist, i wasn't online at all last night. Lol, you damn cute! & to Arian, thanks for helping, but then look, its funny right? Hahahahha! And one more funny thing!! There's only 3 person acting yknow, but yet there's so 8 cast.

You people is damn childish seriously, hmm lemme ban y'all and let's see what else can you do, haha LOSERS!

Oh fuck.

2009-11-21T15:07:00.002+08:00

Okaaaaay, hello! Currently on msn with Cammie. Well, today was a boring day in fact, although i had fun with Victoria sist talking about some wannabes and she kept making me laugh, haha!

Well, i woke sayang up at 9am and i went back to sleep till 10.05am when sayang texted me. And im unable to meet him, so we decided to meet at night ;) Last night was otp with Sayang and i got to talk to his brother and his brother very cute! ^^ Hahah, and last night i had fun talking to sayang otp, ^^

Right now, i feel like not staying in contact with some of my friends already. Cause i am so fucked up with all of them. And now, i do believe that love is blind for god sake, wtf -.-

Oh anddd, i hope i'll be able to work with Sayang at Ck Tangs! :D Hehe, thanks sayang for helping me to ask for Vacancies ;)

Okay, im done, im very hungry naow. bb. :)

Fuck all this shits.

2009-11-20T19:49:00.002+08:00

Just hung up with Ayun. Currently on msn with Esther & Cammie. On youtube listening to Yoga Lin's new song and its very nice and a touching song, its the 10th song on my playlist anyway fyi. :) Im going to download it later on, for sure.

Today i had a bad day, there's no more vacancies for Metro ; Town area but SengKang like so far from my house -___- So we aborted that idea, went to Toyrus, hope they will call us soon, as soon as possible. My leg was super painful, and it was a very tiring day.

I think im going to fall ill soon, like what Fana said. We walked under the rain, we kept walking and walking, super shag.

Went home after that, seriously no mood to talk or whatsoever. Took 190 with Fana, reach home with dinner packed ready in my hands. Bath, online.

Im sorry to those who were with me today, especially Sayang.

I didn't thought that i can affect you. I didn't mean it, but.. haiz, sorry dear. :(

blame it on me, i'm born like this, im not a good girlfriend.

I know you won't read this and neither will you understand. Can you please stay out of my problem?! You are such a spoiler, i seriously hate you. Why must i see you everyday?! Fuck all this shit, i hate it when you stirs up a matter and then tries to be the peacemaker. All because of you, i hate going back! You are driving me mad, please, i want to grow up soon. Fuck all this shit, fuck you! Please don't abuse your rights okay, i don't give a fucking damn, urgh. Irritating bitch.

Long day

2009-11-19T15:53:00.004+08:00

Alright, im here to blog about yesterday, shall not waste time and let's start! Hmm, its a long day actually, but i had fun afterall, wahaha! :P

18th November 2009 (Cammie's 14th!)
Went out at 12.30pm, headed to Pending and met Fana. Then we walk to 190 bustop, while walking, we had a chat and as usual, we laughed like nobody's business, haha! Then we took 190 to Phoenix and took 160 to Jurong East. Then reach already, headed to walk around, then when the clock showed 1.59pm, i started to panic and that Fana is still choosing food in 7eleven and guess what? SHE DIDN'T BUY AT ALL, DUMB SHIT! Lol! Then we headed to Cpf Building. ;)

Scanned ezlink card, then headed to Level 3, very very stress but excited, then we headed to Kelly Services. And filled up forms and we were given a job at Watson as Gift Wrapper. When they told me, the first thing i thought in my mind was "Wtfffff?!!!!" Then we were given time to think about it. And both of us was like, Watson?!! And we decided to give it a try ;)

So after that, we trained to Orchard. There's this family, and the son is crying like nobody's fucking business, and he even screamed. And both of us were laughing nonstop and that Fana so tak tau malu and shouted "shhhhh!" And i was indeed very very paisey, lolz. Idiot cb, lol! Then we alighted and we were stucked in ION as its raining very heavily. So we took a walk inside.

Then we headed to Paragon drenched. But it was fun tho, haha! :P Then we headed to the toilet first, and then to 1st floor (?) Didn't saw Sayang, we left. But we were stucked! And sayang texted me and and met him at the Taxi stand with his friend. Walked to Lucky Plaza, met Cammie and Gummy there ;)

We ate, then Sayang went back to work, and then Fana went home and me, Gummy & Cammie left for Wisma Atria. Walked around, didn't manage to get what we wanted at Forever21 as it not sold in singapore. So we walked around, took picture too <: Then we walked to Paragon back to find Sayang! :)

After meeting him, we went to walk around, then very quickly, its 8pm. And we met Sayang and we headed home. Bloody 190 bus is so damn cold, reached home, bath. Talk otp with Sayang till 3am. He told me stories and it was very very funny but then very sweet too! Then we hung up and i went to sleep straight.

Today
Woke up at 8am, called Sayang, woke him up and i went to sleep back. Woke up again at 9.30am, then bath, ate breakfast, told parents about the Watson job offer, and both of them decided to let me try out the jobs at Paragon, which is so near to Sayang's workplace, cause its the same building, duh -___- LOL. And i got sayang to help me and we're going for interview tomorrow! ^^ Yay!

And Kristlyn came to my house today! ^^ I miss her like hell, the last time we met was like months ago!! T.T Haha, and i cooked her noodles, once in a lifetime okay, cause im a very lazy person, hahahaha! :P She stayed for like 1 hour plus and she left for her boyfriend's house. Okay, i got 2 pictures and here you go ;)

And right now, im texting with Sayang. I miss him so much! :( & the picture with sayang right, i look so ugly -.- okla! im otp with him now! :D & yeaaaaah, i hope sayang love his blog! ^_^

BYEEEEEE!

2009-11-18T08:51:00.002+08:00

Stupid blogger ain't letting me upload pictures :( So i shall post without picture okay. :) Basically this post is for my dearest sista, Cammie ^^

Its her 14th birthday today and i hope that she will stay happy with everything, everyone around her. And i will also hope that she will be able to excel in her studies in the future. I've just got close with her due to lepak sessions with Ayun and co. And she hated me for my fierce face last time, *sad* lol. But right now, we are oh-so in good terms. ;)

friends may not be for you always, but i believe that me, diyanah and gummy will always be there for you. life has its ups and down, learn to live it and you will be much stronger!

14 year old already, big girl now! (Omg, i sound like a mother, lolololol!!) well, in other words, happy birthday cammie! i love you! ;) hehe, see you later on at town <: & oh, its pink! Your fav, mwahahahah! :P

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imma hit town later on with fana. going for a interview session, *happy* hahaha, and after that meet up with cammie and all and then fetch sayang! :) YAY!

And now i shall go and get a bath and then meet sayang again :) I miss him already! *sad*

k la, byeeeeeeeeee!

laughters

2009-11-17T19:34:00.003+08:00

Okay hello! Im here to post about my bbq last night, i forgot to take pictures last night yknow, what the hellz. *sad* Okay, hope this time i won't navigate to another page while posting halfway cause the fvcking blogger don't save it for me, so bad. *sad again*

Went to look fo Gummy around 11+ after bathing and got ready. Went to 120 and meet him. He puffed a lil and we headed to Senja to meet Iskandar. Took everything and train back to Pending. Then we headed to Cck by bus 190.

Reach Cck already, bought stuffs and headed back to Pending by Lrt. Then i met Cammie under my block and headed to my house. Rested for awhile, planned where to go. So we decided on taking the cake first, so we walked there, reach already take the cake and off to Mac for my lunch. :)

Then saw Shakir and Jenica, catch up a lil, told Shakir alot of things and then we headed back to my crib while Cammie went to look for Gummy for L4D. Haha. So headed to my crib, put down the cake and we left to Pending. Met Fana there and chit chat a lil. Then Fana and I headed to Town. While Shakir and Jenica don't know go where, lol.

Took 700 bus there, and alighted after Far East. Then walked to Paragon and looked for Sayang while me and Fana kept blabbering nonsense, lolz. Hahaha. Then met up with him already, headed to Taka. Then we took 700 back. The trip back to Pending suck to the core, make me fvcking stress and i really felt very very fvcked up. And i wanted to sleep but then loads of calls kept coming in, lol. Nevermind, once in a while ;)

Reach already, Emma meet Fana while me and Sayang headed to the Bbq pit. Saw Rena and went towards her, hugged her, talk a lil, then off to do my stuffs. Then Me, Cammie, Gummy and Ayun was somehow stress and we were cursing people, lololol! Then my dearest Ayun went to Bangkit to buy Ice for all of us, thanks sayang and sorry to see your perspiring as though you walked under the rain :(

Then started to Bbq, and people came by groups and groups. Went up to my crib with Kamilah, Fadhila and Emmabel. Took the birthday cake and dumb Emma thought my dog was not locked and she didn't dared to come in, scardy cat. HAHAHAHA. :P Then went down, sang birthday song, and then distributed the cake, its OREO and its very delicious, hahahaha!

Then people started to aim me, Gummy's sister started first, but she was nice enough and very gentle, haha! I like her, ^^ HAHAHAHA. Then i was talking halfway and Alas came to me and pour the flour on my head. And then Emma or Gummy came and pour even more and it went to my mouth and i vomitted, eeeew. Lol!

It was fun, but then i look very white like a ghost, plus i dont have my rubber band with me, lol. So i was the witch of the night, like what Gummy and co said. Evil them, hahaha! And Ricarno came too, his hair very pom-pom like. LOL. Then we bbq and some left due to Probation and stuffs and leaving Ayun, Cammie, Gummy, Syakir (sec 2), Chipmunk, Ira, Me. So we bbq-ed till around 11 near to 12am. And after Pozy came and i headed home, sorry guys :/

Then i headed home, first thing is to bath and wash my hair as though i've not wash for 4 days. Hahaha, and then after bathing, unwrapped my presents and i love all! ^^ But there is earrings, and sadly i don't have any ear holes, but i'll still keep it with me! ^^V

Then after that, around 1215, Sayang called me. I can't sleep and as well as him so we talked till 3+. I had fun talking with him and then we hung up. Slept after that.

Till 9.30am, suppose to wake sayang up at 9am but i overslept, lol! ;P Then i texted him and went to wash up. Then bought breakfast for Granny and Bro. Then i went to bath and headed downstairs to meet up with Sayang ;)

Till about 12+ , he left for work after sending me home. Then i headed back home, online for awhile and went to sleep till 6+ i think? Then woke up, online, help Fadhila to change her blogskin and ate dinner. Then sayang texted me. :)

And here i am blogging. I didn't hit town just now cause i can't go out :/ So yeah, stayed at home uh, sorry sayang! :( Hmm, imma hit town tomorrow with Fana for sure, going for interview. Might be working at CK Tangs building. Near sayang's workplace!! ^^ Yay, hahaha! :P

Can't wait for tomorrow, meeting Sayang before he leaves for work again! :D He wants to meet me later on, but then i don't know can anot :/ *sad*

Im on msn with Fana and Cammie right now. Okie, waiting for Sayang's text now, bye! Time now is 8.15 and Sayang knock off already, yipeeeeeeeee! :D :D

too much

2009-11-17T13:04:00.002+08:00

i just met ayun baby just now and now im missing him like hell. imma hit town later on to look for him, hope mommy allows me. i had a long talk with him last night and he said its very fast. haha, cute i know [:

i just navigated to another page without saving and i have to RE TYPE everything. fuck. _1_ lol.
nevermind, i shall do it later on, i promise *winks*

i miss hairul aka ayun now. alot alot alot. his off day is this friday, yay ^^ hehe.

k la, bye!

im sixteen today.

2009-11-16T09:58:00.002+08:00

okay hello people. i turn sixteen today. it was exciting to see those texts messages coming in and cause my phone to jam like hell. haha k, i know my phone budget :( lol. but still, my favourite phone okay, hmph! hahah! :P

Okay, i would like to congrat Syazwan for being the 1 person to wish in advance and Rena to text me at 12am sharp. ^^ And i would like to thanks Cammie and Gummy for their post on their blog, not forgetting Yimling's post too, ^^ And i would like to thanks who stayed till 12am on msn to just wish me happy birthday. ^^

And most importantly, sayang! Thanks for waking up so early for me this morning. Was very touched and see you getting stress bout my pit, seriously thanks alot, i love you! :D I'll see you later on okay sayang? ;)

Hmm, can't get to sleep last night, kinda no mood for no reason, stayed awake till 3am and then finally i can sleep, before that i kept thinking that imma die on my birthday. lolz. i know im stupid, rofl. So slept like finally....

Woke up around 8.30 by daddy's shouting happy birthday, wake up and buy breakfast for me. LOLOLOLOL, so woke up, brush teeth, everything. Then went to buy breakfast for dad, mom, granny and me. And today i ate breakfast okay, lol. Okay weird, then chatted with dad and mom. I love chatting with 'em cause they always either make me laugh or mad. lolz.

Hmm, right now on msn with Cammie sista ;) Hmm waiting for Gummy's call now. Cause we have something on, hehe ^^ Okay, hmm ohya, i nearly forgot something!!

The bbq location is changed, from Bukit Panjang Park to Block 121 Pending Road. Do take note, you can alight from Pending station and cross the road and walk in. Don't know? Find yourself, haha, bastard me. Just text me alright ;)

Hehe, okay im done!! ^^ IM SIXTEEEEEEEEEEN, YAY!

Thanks Yimling!

2009-11-15T19:07:00.002+08:00

Alright, i wanna say thanks to Yimling for her sweet dedication on her blog for me, and she posted my favourite picture yaknow, haha. Thanks girl, hmm how can you dislike me for liking Shakir at the same time as you! *heartbreak* Haha, that was like 4 years ago man?! Shan't talk much about her post aye, you want, you read. In other words, Yimling, Thanks! Love ya! Wait for me, im turning SIXTEEEN! HAHAHAHAHA.

Went to meet Ayun, Iskandar & Ilham under my block, and Ayun wanted to scare me with this lil stupid bomb thing, lolz. Then we went to idk block and slacked. Then around 6+, me, Ayun & Ilham headed to Bangkit while Iskandar head home to shit. Haha. Lol.

Then off to bangkit with Sayang while that Ilham went somewhere -___- Weirdo. LOL. Then bought food for Granny and brother. Then walk back to my block. Met Iskandar and i headed home.

Now, im waiting for sayang to go home and then call me up! ;) Hehe, so yeah, ciaos! :D

And please take note, my bbq location is changed. Please do take note. I will contact you guys by tonight, im sorry for the kecoh-ness or whatever ya call it. ;)

Bahahahaha, tomorrow im sixteen, sayang, wait for your turn k, lolz. :P

everything just for you.

2009-11-15T14:43:00.002+08:00

okay hello! okay, shan't waste time and get started with last night ;) okay go.

was otp with sayang, then we end up msn-ing. then chatted till about 12+ and i went to sleep. and around 1+ shakir and hadi called me up. and fuck! they make me angry, lol. and then i went back to sleep.

woke up around 11am and didnt want for work as it was late and i didn't call up granny too. hehe, so i went to wash up, bath and sayang called. met him at pending and met gummy and ilham. went to ilham's crib outside. then they were kickboxing etc. took video and it was hilarious, haha.

then iskandar came. and headed to bangkit with sayang and iskandar. headed to wendy's, and then went to look for iskandar's earpiece. and fucking shit, i got "molested". nabeh, cb, your father die. _1_ for you pubor! then walk back to ilham's block while iskandar went for some birthday party.

stayed there till 2+ and they walk me home and they left for 139 i think. and now im at home, freaking hungry. :( lazy to cook, brother's sleeping, granny's out. i want to look for them uh, but then im wondering will my mom allow.. *sad*

haha, i will ask her later on then. ;) tomorrow is my birthday, like finally! i can't wait, hehe. <: finally i'll get to see those who i've not met since school closed, people like yimling, rena, tina, vivien, yingying etc. yay! :]

k la, i stop here, bye! :)

Till i heard about it.

2009-11-14T20:31:00.004+08:00

Okay hello readers! Been wondering, everyday the number of readers that reads my blog are 50 and above and yet not much tags. :( Kinda disappointing yknow, lol. Hahah! K la, emotional much -.-

Sayang texted me when he woke up, real pig. Haha, it was around 2.30 then. Then msn with Gummy. Then texted Ayun. Then met them around 3+ under my block, then Iskandar came. Then Iskandar left shortly after, then left me, gummy and ayun.

Talked, slacked, till 6pm and bought dinner and home. Just hung up with Ayun and Gummy. 3 of us is very stress now, im kinda pissed off uh.

I hate selfish and lazy people. *angry face* fvck! :@

Okay, back. (: Look at this! LOL. Justin Bieber leh! Hahahaha! Cute uh Ayun, lolz. -.- Those who watch this video, please do comment! :)

I love you

2009-11-14T13:33:00.004+08:00

Okie hi. I can't believed that i only posted once yesterday, omg. I think i forgot to or too lazy to. Hahahahah, k la, now i post about last night okie. ^-^

Went downstairs to meet sayang around 9+. Then after that he passed me something and i thought it was something major, haha. But it was sweet uh, lolz. So we talked till 10.30 and he send me home. Lol. Reached home, wanted to eat dinner but then lazy too cook, so forgot about it, lol. Chatted with Cammie, Gummy, Huzai and Hazmi.

Then texted with Ayun and left to sleep afterthat. :) Great night, lol. Hahahaha. Woke up around 10.30pm, shag to the max and today there's no renovation going on!! Hahaha, i had a gr8t sleep this morning, woke up, bath, chatted with Elysa Ciner. <:

Then webcammed with Dion. Then now im on msn with Gummy. I haven't ate since yesterday's Fishball $1.20 yknow. ): I dont know what to eat and im also lazy to cook. :D

Hmm, anyway, to the emily tan hui yi: Fuck you, use my name use Emily. to tag lah, i don't tag with my full name. And please, Ayun is only my close friend, and if you love him that much, tell me okie. I help you tell him. And please stop being lame and tag with my full name, douche.

I say again, Ayun is only my close friend. Kthbai. :D

Oh and before that, those who are invited to my Bbq on Monday, please do take note that the Bbq will starts at 6pm. So if you guys were to come before 6pm, there'll be no food but to go to Bpp for snack. Bahaha, so yeah. See you guys soon, and once again, its Bukit Panjang Park okie. Reach already text me. Don't call, prepaid low dok. :P Thanks! Ciaaaaaaaaoz!

If it was easy.

2009-11-13T16:32:00.002+08:00

Okay hello, im back! Hmm shall talk about last night aye. Was feeling down last night and have no mood to blog about my day, sorry yeap. Hmm okay, last night was okay, especially nearly to 12am. Hahahah! :P

I am no longer single, hehe yay! ^^ Okay back to topic, slept around 12+ and then woke up around 9+. Was fed up with the renovation next door, fuck! I hate the sounddd~ So noisy, i can't even sleep for long! :X

So woke up, and then texted with Mr Fav and went to bath. Then went online for awhile and then went downstairs to meet Ayun! *wide smile* Then went down already, stupid him never eat panadol, haiz. Then Gummy came.

Then talk for awhile and Ayun left for work and leaving me and Gummy. Then Iskandar came, and then headed to Ten Mile. Then met up with Cammie, Jeni and Diyanah. :) Then off to Sheng Shiong.

Then bought stuffs, had fun and had hide-and-seek game with Jeni and Diyanah, haha! Then after that, headed to Iskandar's crib. Then off to slack for awhile and left to Bpp. Paid for the cake, its oreeeeeo!! YAY. HAHAHA. Then off to Macdo, then slacked till 4+ and bus home with Cammie.

Reach home, online, ;) Hmm, feel like changing my blogskin. Im so sick and tired of this skin already, meh. :/ Sian sianz. :(

Hmm, can't wait for Monday to come. Tomorrow going to Novena with Cheryl! And then Sunday working with grandparents, and then monday, oh yeeeeeeaaaaaaaahhh. My day!! HAHAHA!

Wanna wish Kak Ilah & Yimling a happy 17th and 16th birthday! Hehe, hope you two stay happy forever! & not forgetting, Carmen sis, happy 14th birthday (?) Haha! Love you three! :D

And yesterday was the 12th, for this relationship, i just want us to be happy and everything goes smoothly for us from today onwards. Argh, faster text me sayaaaaaaaaaaang, your break time start already! :P Hehe!

K la, i stop here. Baibai~

everything

2009-11-12T20:40:00.002+08:00

this picture relates to you. fuck, why am i like this again. when can i be really really happy...

One love, one heart.

2009-11-12T12:17:00.003+08:00

Time check now is 12.24pm. Just hung up with Gummy. We are talking about tomorrow's sheng shiong trip. Im right now at Novena alone, mom headed to the airport to fetch dad & uncle. Very bored now, listening to Justin's song, gosh i think im in love with his song, lol. -___-

Okay, just 1/2 hour to go and i'll see the usual customer from Radin Mas Primary. Haha, bunch of cute lil kiddos. They are fun people, somehow lame too. Lol, hahaha. And they thought i was only 13. God damn shit. -.-

Hmm, kinda bored yknow. ): Can't really wait for Monday to come. But wait, let's see. Today im at Novena. Tomorrow Sheng Shiong trip. Saturday, heading to novena for Cheryl's E61. Sunday, Novena again. And monday, woohoo, special day! Its party timeeee! Whahaha! :P

Can't wait to see them coming again, shall take hellotsz of photos. Hmm, last night i cried, and my cramps hurts like hell, nabeh. Why must girls be girls? LOL.

Hmm, got nothing to post uh. Post later on yep. ciaos!

Something about you.

2009-11-11T21:14:00.003+08:00

Alright, hello! Im back home after a long day at Novena. Hmm tomorrow again, going to Novena with Mom. Sounds fun, but its boring although there is a computer for me, lol. My mom is not as cool as ma friends, she don't joke with me. *sad*

So today, i had a long chat with a friend of mine, i mean my bestfriend. Hmm, was kinda glad that we are able to chat like normal already, and the advantage of being bestfriends is that i can disturb him with all i want, mwhahahah! Seeing him irritated makes me happy, you wait only Po*k, i know you reads my blog, watch outtt!

Dont really have the mood to post right now, my back hurts like helll and i am kinda sick. Lol. Everytime like that, i think im going to be a sicko soon, lol k lame -___- Alright.

Currently on msn with Cammie, Fana & Ayun. K la, i stop here, tomorrow post again. Oh ya, i got something to show you all. Hold on....

Look at that Shakir's face, hmm i kinda miss this dog and the others too, hope to see them all on Monday then!! ^-^

Till here, ciaos!

brand new day

2009-11-11T11:57:00.003+08:00

Last night was terrible. The whole block of mine went black out and i was on the phone with Sera. Luckily man, but then i was alone at the kitchen and i was fucking shocked. Then i quickly ask fatty to come teman me, lolllll. Haha, then walk to living room, sat down. Fugging black, i mean dark. LOL.

Then Gummy called, then we hung up. Then Mr Favourite texted me, cause he stay around me too, then he was asking whether got black out anot, hahaha! Then after the lights came back, we had fun talking among the siblings and we slept around 12am? Lol.

Then woke up around 9am, Fadhila called. Then woke Eugene up for AIP. Then went back to sleep again. Then woke up, bath, headed to Novena with Mom.

Then had breakfast, and Mr Favourite texted me, hehe. :P Then i think he 4pm will text me again! xD

Just hung up with Akif, hmm. Kinda miss them ah, but nevermind. Tak original perh, haha. I prefer my current clan, lol!

K la, those who i've invited to ma birthday, please confirm with me by thursday. And those who i gave a miss call, call me back oke, cause you are invited, bahahahha! :P Okay, bye!

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Okay, i got this photo from Tina's blog. Was really missing the past. Last year's 11th November, we were getting ready for our 1 week Yunnan trip. ;) It was fun, exciting and amazing and i can't wait for it. As the weather there is absolutely cool and different from Singapore's.

I remember me getting down the plane when i reached and the feeling is like shiok gile babi! Haha. Shopping at Lijiang Old Town. Bargaining, laughing, singing school songs, national song.

It was a fun experience, and my birthday, i had my birthday cake which is about 2 palms high and it was kind of cute with alot alot of creams -.- and it tastes somehow weird. hahaha, but i still appreciate JJC's idea. 8) Thanks people!

I miss the fun-ness, i want to go again. jom? hahahahha, k kidding.

da la, now on facebook chat with gummy bro, whahah! BYE! 1 more hour to go!

love you

2009-11-10T17:30:00.002+08:00

Okay! Hello again, just came back from 137 ^^ Ayun & Iskandar send me home and they went off to Bpp i guess? Hmm, shall talk about it okey. Went to Pending and the super nice iskandar came and bring me there, when i said i know how to go there, lol.

So went to Pending, bought Greentea then walk to 217. While walking, stupid iskandar disturb me, grrr! Then went there, met Gummy, Cammie and Ilham. Iskandar was using da lappy, Gummy was punching the sandbag, Ilham is abusing his nephew (LOL) and then Cammie and I was just sitting there. Then Ilham's niece came along and sat down with us.

Then i tied her hair and i got so happy about it cause Gummy said it was cute, wahaha! Then after that we went under Ilham's block. Then lepak for awhile, Iskandar left for Outram. Then Ilham, me, Cammie & Gummy went for Bangkit. And Ilham blanje dok! Hahaha, thanks ah Dragonball! ^^

Then after that walked to 137 and meet Ayun & Zul. So sad at first cause someone merajok with me just cause ma ex talked to me last night. Then when he is alone, i went to pujok him, and yes! He smiled! ^^ And i was so happy! Hahaha, wakwakwahz.

Then after that Zul left and came Ilham's friends. And i get kinda irritated with guys keep looking at me, like as if they are gonna eat me up. I told Cammie and Gummy about it. Lol! Then Gummy and Cammie left to play with Sherry. So i was the only girl and then after awhile, Ayun and Iskandar send me home. :) How nice, wahaha!

Then reach the lift there, there was a coakcroach near my leg and i screamed and both of them was shocked. LOL. Then i went home, online, blog. :)

For everyone's info, im not a hongster okie. Don't come and tag me and say i hongster lah hor, i tiongxim that person, that person also never tiongxim kamlan? Correct anot? :)

Yay, Iskandar's helping me to book da BBQ pit soon! Yay, and then Friday sheng shiong trip with Iskandar, Ayun, Gummy and Cammie ^-^ People like them make my day, esp Mr Favourite. Bahahahahha! K shut up.

Bbq on my birthday, those who i invited, come okay. Those who i didn't, real sorry.. I got my own reasons, plus i also know that you won't come. So yeah, sorry. :)

Right now, those who are really my true friends, those who are not, i know very well. Those who cares for me are Ayun and co. Thanks guys, seriously, i was really happy when im with you all.

As for the past, when im with the usuals, i made it so un-original. Cause one of you somehow tried to hint me that when im in, im not original. And it hurts much.

Try to be me, think of how will i feel. :) I got it thru cause of Ayun and co. Thanks ah guys, see you all soon. :)

Ignorance

2009-11-10T10:35:00.003+08:00

Okay morning. Right now on msn with Cammie Sista ^^ Going to lepak with them later on. Last night was kinda okay, we spoke really in a very calm way, and surprisingly, i didn't cried. I believed your reason, i really do, but then you are too selfish towards me and you hurt me very very badly. I cried, i skipped my meals, i had sleepless nights, its not fair.

So after he went offline, i felt better and happier. But then my favourite is down, for few days already, kinda sad yknow. ): Ahlala, cheer up lah, i can't put your name here, neither can do i put down "him" or "her". I hope you know this post is for you and cheer up sayang! ^^

Was on msn with Ira Meimei, as usual, we both got to laugh together. And she again, talked about how i eat -___- Ahlaaa, i only drop vegetables infront of you mah, haiya! Then she call me small girl ): Lol, okay lah, its fine. Only she can call me small girl, nyehehe! :P Imma meet her up soon, i miss her so much!

Today is only Tuesday. Gonna book the bbq pit tomorrow i think, hope it will be sucess cause its kinda last minute. ): Gonna head to Sheng Shiong with Ayun and the rest. Gonna have fun for sure, and i miss them already! Later! Weeeee, yay! ^-^

Time now is 10.57am. Gonna bath, wash my bedsheets, take my own sweet sweeeeeeeet time and then walk to 217 to meet Ilham and the rest. With Cammie there too! Hahah :D

Oke, im kinda bored right now. I just can't stop thinking of last night. I dreamt of my favourite, and then i bang my head to my cabinet (real life) and in my dream, my favourite laughed at me and sayang me. Very hilarious, and now my head hurts like hell _1_

But nice dream anyway, and good news is, today is a brand new day, imma move on, move to another step! Yeaaaaaah, so proud of myself *winks*

Im scared.

2009-11-09T21:36:00.002+08:00

i had a great day at Novena today. American Idol, Malay Series on Suria, Amazing Race, I Wanna Hold Your Hand. Pizzas, Pink Dolphine. Gonna grow fat again! :@ Haha, nevermind.

Reached home around 9.30pm, before that went to Westcoast, Bangkit then to 215. Then home. Reached home, as usual, checked out 2 blogs. Was very very shocked to see him tagging it.. I admit, i still rawr him, but i need to move on.. Argh. :'(

Now the time is 9.42pm. And, my heart is pumping at the fastest speed it can be. The anxiety is back to me, like how i first fell in love. My eyes are stucked to the bottom right corner. God, by imagining that, im scared of my tears falling.

Your scoldings, your F words hurts me like hell. You made my heart broke into thousand pieces, yet each pieces of my heart kept thinking of you causing me to hurt. Cause i forced myself to not miss you, not think of you. But whenever i tries, it just hurts. And now it still hurts cause im forcing myself..

Argh, i got no idea what is wrong with me, or rather us too. My dear love, i admit i still love you alot like how i do, but its fading already, it is really fading, but in a very very slow speed. Everything seems to be okay now, is god playing with my heart? My tears? No no.. I don't want it to be..

Why, why must this happen to me, im god damn stress right now. I feel like crying like how i did for you on the 5th Novemer... :'(

That was your favourite picture, i don't know why i posted it too... *cries*

Reminiscence.

2009-11-09T12:10:00.003+08:00

Okay hello! Im right now at Novena with mom <: Hmm, my favourite just texted me, im so happy! Gummy, Ayun & Iskandar is out to Mustafa now, and also Ilham. And sorry ah Cammie, i buey you, i can't go out ah, i have to go out with my mom. D: Sorry dear, will meet soon okie, hehe.

Hmm, the reason why i posted the picture of our classrooms is because i misses my classroom. I miss the way we run from class to the basement to the toilet and skip lessons for 1/2 hour. And yes, i misses social studies, english and mother tongue lessons. K nevermind, forget it. Haha!

Currently on msn with Cammie sister <: Hmm go home then blog la k. I lazy now.

Bye! & i miss that favourite boy of mine, wahehe! ^^

Running

2009-11-08T17:19:00.003+08:00

Okay hello, second post. Im kinda addicted to Flat's blogsong, its very nice and its very meaning for me, as in before i went to lepak with Ayun. But now i've reached home, i don't think that song elaborates about me and ma ex. Don't ask why, only Ayun and me knows why, bahaha! :P

Okie, went to Bangkit around 1+. Headed to Wendy's then off to 272 to meet up Emma darling. Miss her so much, wakwakwa! (: Greeted her mom, and then watch the kompang boys performed, and its very nice, but let me thought of ma ex. Okay shut up. Move on!! Then after that walked to 139 to meet Ham and Ayun.

Lepak, talked, then Ayun went home for awhile and Aryna & Mirrah came along. So we laughed and talked, then Ayun came along. After that Aryna & Mirrah left. Then Ham left, leaving me and Ayun that idiot, okay kidding. Bahaha! ^^

So, as per normal, he disturbed me all the way, malu malu, shy shy! Hahahaha! He told me alot of stuffs that i didn't know, and i was real angry when he told me, but its okay, da over. Now, i wanna focus on the replacement boy, *smile* kan Ayun? Hahahaha! Then wanted to wait for Gummy, but then i need to go home. So slacked till 5pm and then i went home.

Home, verbal fight with mom, here am i online. I've not been eating since yesterday, i didn't ate anything today and im not feeling hungry. 50 kg, 45 coming? Oh yeaaaaaaaah, in total thanks to you, imma lost 10 kg since 5th November! Thanks ah, this is the advantage, disadvantage is that i need to cope with your memories with me.

I like this song alot, will post the lyrics too. Its flat's blogsong, i like it alot. ^-^V

We were picture perfect
Flawless on the surface
We were walking on a straight line

We were automatic
You seemed so fanatic
I was confident
And white eyed

Tough times watched us come undone
You found someone

Tell me why i think about you
And tell me if you think about me
And tell me when you touch her
Is it really love or just another fantasy
And tell me does she make you laugh
And tell me does she make you move
And tell me does she get you
Take away your breath
Just tell me that it can't be true
What i found out about you

It feels like a nightmare
To see your hands in her hair
You seem happy ever after

I'm stuck in denial
I can't fake a smile
You play innocent
It's so damn hard
So down
I want back what's mine
Can we rewind?

Tell me why i think about you
And tell me if you think about me
And tell me when you touch her
Is it really love or just another fantasy
And tell me does she make you laugh
And tell me does she make you move
And tell me does she get you
Take away your breath
Just tell me that it can't be true
What i found out about you

So much for happy endings
So much for miracles
So much for trusting you
It-it feels so typical
I miss you
I miss you

We were picture perfect
Flawless on the surface
We were walking on a straight line

Tell me why i think about you
And tell me if you think about me
And tell me when you touch her
Is it really love or just another fantasy?
And tell me does she make you laugh
And tell me does she make you scream
And tell me it's over
It's only a dream
What i found out about you

And tell me does she get you
Take away your breath
Just tell me that it can't be true
What i found out about you

And tell me does she get you
Take away your breath
Just tell me that it can't be true
What i found out about you

The red ones is to ask you. The green ones is how i fucking felt when i recieved your text. Im sorry that i beared grudges, but im a girl, i got limits and feelings too mister, no hard feeling.

last night.

2009-11-08T10:37:00.003+08:00

Okie hello. It was kinda hard last night to fall asleep but i managed to do it afterall. Was having conference and had a great time. Was talking about food last night with ayun, god damn funny. Haha, got me laughing like hell. Then we talked in chinese, and their accent is very cute de lor, haha! And and, Iskandar too! I lurbe your english ah, "sheng shong". Haha!! :D

They made me day. I was alone at the 12th floor and Ayun & Emmabel called/texted me, asking me to stop waiting and go home. But i was very reluctant to, so Cheryl came and looked for me. Thanks for your shoulder girl, i appreciate much. Was crying and crying and when gummy reached, i stopped crying and my eyes are so puffy like -.-

That was yesterday. I hope today i won't cry anymore, i must be strong! (: Hehe, imma plan a bbq for my birthday and the guestlist too. Last minute much i know, and i must get my mood back for my birthday although im facing fucked up stuffs now.

And, im now missing you, argh. Get off my mind will you?! :(

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Sorry for this extra post, you can choose to skip it. Im feeling damn emotional right now, but hopefully my tears won't drop. I was bloghopping and i kept hopping to those who are attached and quarreling in a rabak way. But i see their partner tagging them saying that although they fight, they still trust each other. And they will make it last no matter what.

After reading this, i looked back at our relationship. I seriously felt very sad, im missing you now, and my tears are coming out. Boy, i trusted you all the way, and maybe they way i texted you, you don't understand and you thought that i didn't trusted you.

You are still on my mind, when i was at the 12th floor yesterday, i kept crying and crying. I held our picture near to me, afraid of losing it, i held the dairy book very tightly, i cried and cried. How i wish we wasn't over, how i wish that i got you to cut the birthday cake with me. You are everything to me, but now, im trying to be strong but i just can't.

Hope you will find a better girl, cause the problem between us is communications. Im willing to go for it, talk it out. But you don't want to, i really waited for you yesterday, you can ask Ayun and the rest. They persuaded me to go home/leave that place, i just don't want to..

I miss you, alot my dear.. *cries*

Moving on.

2009-11-07T21:20:00.005+08:00

Okie dokie, hello readers. I know you people misses my post especially my tx readers, bahah! Many things happened these few days, buckets of tears will be appearing if i were to collect. Nah, kidding.

Hahaha, im being so emotional uh, for this whole week. and damn it, i wasted alot of time too, and i lost 5 kg, like cool or what? cause i skipped my meals every now and then. ;]

Once lovers, once bestfriend. Never ever regretted, its over between us. Perhaps we wasn't good enough for each other, although i still love you alot, but i have to move on. We can't go far, and we have to stop just 10 days before our 3rd monthsary. People say if we were to pass the 3rd month, 5 month will not be a problem. After 5 month, we can last for long, very long.. I'll not forget you, there's alot of wonderful memories between us. Takecare, always here for you, your bestfriend. :)

Today i went to 12th floor, stayed till 5pm till gummy, ayun, iskandar asked me to stop waiting and leave. So we went to slacked downstairs, and then me and cheryl went to have mac. I had my first meal for today, but i only ate a lil. Better than not eating okay, 5kg mind you!!! So after eating, left plaza. Guess who i saw!! Izad, mwahaha! Called him and waved to him, and left. Lame much i know, lols. Left for petir, cheryl lrt back while i walked to 139 to meet up Gummy, Ayun and Iskandar.

Had loads of fun with 'em, they really tried to talk some sense into me, i was speaking rubbish all the time. And, god damn it, i farted infront of Ayun and he was so shocked and stare at me and i laughed so loudly. And then Gummy laughed too, haha! Then Gummy left around 7+ while i stayed since Ayun said he will send me home, wakwakwa! :P

Stayed till 8.15pm, then they send me till 11 floor. Never failed to say "dont think so much lah emily" from Gummy before he left, haha! Reached home, bath, texted, online.

I've decided to move on, i hope i can do it. I know you won't find another girl like me, everyone is different. Im unique in my own way, and so do you. I will never find a boy like you, seriously. Im moving on, we'll be together if what the quiz's result is true.

It takes time, thanks to all those who bothered to ask how was i, am i doing fine, giving me advices. People like Wenhui, Esther, Victoria, Aryna, Fana, Sera, Emmabel, Cammie, Gummy, Ayun, Iskandar, Farris & Mira Sherman for advices. Love you all to the max. :*

Okay la, on msn with Ayun now. Later conference with Iskandar and Ayun! Perhaps with Aryna! Okay bye.